Today’s first step was to create this vision. It was rather easy to create, really. And I can see it all quite clearly. I am really struggling with what will come next, though, and I don’t know why I’m bothering resisting it. I think the feeling is that it will be difficult to do, and that I will mess it all up somehow. I guess I could just bracket the concerns, and go into it full-heartedly and consciously, with intention. Otherwise, I’ll just keep resisting and getting nothing useful, happy, or good accomplished at all. 😛
I wake in the morning happy, have some tea or hot chocolate, and do some yoga, stretching, and meditation. I dress easily in clothes selected last night. As I check my reflection in the mirror, I am delighted in what I see all around. On the days I want it, I sit down at a large mirror and put on some makeup. Otherwise, I just brush my hair.
I have a work space with a sewing machine, and clothes rack behind it with my current and most recent work hanging. There is an asel in the corner with beautiful and happy painting supplies. An art box is near it, filled with the art supplies I use, and a small arrangement of blank canvases. There is lots of white in the rooms, but a warmth from different home-y pieces around… mostly shades of blue and wood-brown. I have a place to set my laptop on a desk (after pulling it out from a shelf or drawer, where it was put away) to work using it, with a notebook next to it for thoughts and notes. My woven stool sits in the corner for sitting, reading, meditating, with my sheepskin partly atop it. There is a large rug or two on the floor, with a few feather throw pillows around casually. I make bracelets and malas on the floor, and always pick up everything when I finish a session. I have a creative collage happening on one wall – a dream board. I see it and admire it every day, and add to it occasionally, as I find new pieces I want to have be part of it. My work room is a haven of peace, giddy delight, and the creativity of God and Woman.
Sometimes, I sit with tea while music plays on the record player. I do my art – sewing, painting, or making my stone bead art (bracelets and malas, mostly) – and usually have music playing, often on the record player. It sits to the side, with a small set of albums by it.
My bedroom is calm and cozy and inviting. It is very clean-feeling. I spend my time here mostly only after I have recently showered. My essential oils and incense are set up in here. When I get ready for bed, I have a set place to put my dirty clothes, and it is small – just large enough for a load or two of washing, and always slightly empty. I select between two or three beloved shampoos and conditioners when I shower, and I wrap myself in towels that I love when I finish. It is easy to pull out my floss, toothbrush, toothpaste and return them to their easy places. The same with the rubbing alcohol and Q-tips. Sometimes I have another tea after my shower and before brushing my teeth. I brush my hair and meditate, before doing my bedtime reading, all in the light of fairy lights and maybe a standing lamp in the corner with similar light. I pull out my clothes for the next day after I check the expected weather. I fall asleep happily.
In all of this, I did not see my own clothing. It is all put away, except for the outfit I have selected for the day, which is laying out, waiting for me. I have a small section of “Memory Materials” in, I think, my room, for my future partner and/or child/ren to peruse with and without me.
I read, but I didn’t notice any books in the vision I created. (Just about four of them.) I also noticed no movies…
I had to talk with my brother about the book part. He thinks I’ve hit upon something profound about the way I want to live and the relationship I have with books. I have them all documented as “Read” and “Want to read” on GoodReads, anyway, so why do I need to keep a physical record? I’m not 100% convinced that I’d be happy down the road if I didn’t keep a handful of my sought-out books from my youth, but I do believe that I am fine letting even more go than I had ever anticipated… I mean, I already went through them briefly today, just to see how I felt when I looked at them from this new perspective, and pulled out about a sixth of the books… with ease and comfort. So, yeah… This will be an adventure. I am certain of it.