Today, I was the forced object and false source of a race-related disturbance.
And I don’t want to talk about it.
But I do want to share that it happened.
The woman did not hear my giddy excitement as I told my mom what I had just seen while returning from the bathroom, nor that my mom asked me where I had seen them.
The woman did not hear my genuine words of excuse (or my mother’s), immediately following the moment where my pointed arm passed between her eyes and her far-outstretched camera.
The woman did not see that she was almost standing on top of my bag (to which I had just returned after using the bathroom).
The woman did not hear or see any of this – she only saw a pale, blue-eyed, blonde girl ‘get rudely in her way’.
Based on all of the angrily expelled words that were slung like swings of a bat from her mouth, she made some serious assumptions about who and how the ‘never taught any manners’ white girl was.
At first, I made an effort to calm her and to show her how unintentional the act of pointing in front of her was, and that I’d never meant to do any harm or rudeness…, but her irrational declarations and chastisements suddenly became rational, when I discovered that, for her, it was about race, and had nothing to do with what actually had happened.
At that point, I made it clear to my mom, too, that there was no use in discussing anything with the woman – she couldn’t hear us or our words… only our skin.
It saddened me that someone would believe such intense beliefs about me, and especially where we were (a multicultural event), when I am the person I am.
I have more than just friendships to show that I am not what the woman assumed of me, but it seems absurd that I even would have to defend myself on the matter… I just don’t understand why people continue to insist that things like this must be “fought”.
What good was accomplished by this woman’s verbal attack today?
I don’t believe that fighting has ever truly been the answer in history.
It was just a way to get rid of those who saw things differently, but permanently so – it didn’t actually solve problems.
… Anyway… just some thoughts of mine tonight…