Nightmares

My nightmares used to involve my being attacked in some way or another – someone was after me, and I was having to fight for my life.

Now, however, they all involve, in some form, my having to go without my man, his having been lost to me by force somehow.

And that’s been the case ever since I met him. I guess it’s kind of simple: These dreams God had given me for a partner and husband and family in my life were finally coming true… Now, my greatest fear is no longer to lose my own life, but to lose the life I’d get to live with him.

So, I guess the fear hasn’t changed – it’s still about losing my life. But the version that I see of my life has altered drastically.

Oh, God, heal me, please, of these fears. Help me to sleep well at night, free from these visions, and help me, also to live with a true ease and comfort that you are holding us both in your hands and you are keeping us safe and happy and healthy and holy for this life you have offered to us to live and fulfill together, with and through you. Thank you for this opportunity. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2023