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I still want to go somewhere. But it would be great not to have to spend a bunch of money for a hotel or airbnb at that somewhere. Hopefully, I can find some people who have extra space for us to come stay and visit in the near future. And, in the meantime, perhaps I’ll still take a shortened trip to somewhere direct. I’d really like to go visit DC before July fourth this year, see it with all the hubbub and anticipation of our country’s 250th anniversary of independence. (Way cool, by the way. We even got to see some of the founding documents recently, which was totally awesome. Especially the draft copy with edits written all over it! That was awesome!) Hoping my husband will end up with a few days off, and he can come join us in the explorations for one day. But we have to see how this week goes for him first. Hopefully, it will go really well, and he’ll be able to take the mental day to spend with us next week in DC(!). Fingers crossed!

But also, probably still will go, even if he can’t. Just might stop a night with him afterward, if that works for him. And, again, if not, we’ll just enjoy the trip and then come home.

Thank you, God, for this life and my husband and daughter. Help us to be kind. Make us well and whole, and keep us safe, please. Grant that my husband do well in his work always. Help him to be his best self. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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She fights me and climbs on me and literally hits on me. But, the moment I set her on the ground to play instead of go to sleep, she freaks out and starts crying intensely.

So, you are ready to go to sleep, then…

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He guided us clearly yesterday. I am trusting him to guide us clearly today, too.

Thank you for everything, God. Please, keep us safe, make us well and whole, and guide us clearly. Help my husband to do well, as you made him to do. In your name, we pray. Amen.

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I got very excited about taking a trip tomorrow. It all happened today. This afternoon, really. And so, we went ahead and booked the flights after I confirmed with my husband that we might as well bite the bullet and try out the longer trip with our daughter and me traveling on our own. He said that, if it went badly, then we just would have to keep practicing until it isn’t bad anymore. We both laughed at that idea.

So, we booked this trip barely 18 hours out. Very good chances. However, a flight must have gotten cancelled this evening, because our first leg options went from hundreds of empty seats to only ten total across three flights. As I debated canceling altogether – including the Uber that was supposed to pick me up in three hours – because I really needed to think through packing way better than I had been able to do just tonight, and I was overwhelmed with how much physical effort might be involved, and with all the stuff I didn’t know and couldn’t ask friend about before leaving since she was asleep, etc., I got a notification from Uber that my flight had been canceled, and did I want to adjust or cancel the ride to the airport? I laughed. And I was immensely relieved. I had been excited when there were loads of spots open. And when we were going to be surprising my dad. But the stress of so few seats combined with the stress of packing on short notice for the hardest weather – I seriously struggle with packing for weather that is in the teens (Celsius, not Fahrenheit. No way would I even do Fahrenheit teens.) – and having to get up super early after almost no sleep and travel all day and night… just made me not want to go anymore.

So, God handled it for me, and I am grateful. We will find another time to go visit. I learned a lot about this type of travel, as well as about what I need for my own success in prepping and packing.

Thank you, God, for the fun of today, and for the learning of it. Keep us well and safe and whole. Grant my husband the success he needs to do very well in his work, please. Thank you for the humility. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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And, some nights, after much progress in potty usage, your daughter just stands up and pees all over the floor. Then you get an unknown scratch on your leg that stings. Then your daughter pinches your nipple in her board book. All as you’re just trying to get ready for bed and go the eff to sleep.

Or, perhaps, that is just a series of events that happens to me. Perhaps I am alone on this night’s events.

God, heal us, make us well, keep us whole, and give us nourishing sleep each night, tonight especially. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I’m working on a semi-spontaneous trip next week. I don’t want to spend much money, but I want the trip to be worth the destination. So, finding a balance of clean and safe hotels that are close enough to trains to make getting around easy, and cost per number of days. Originally, I was thinking we’d go Tuesday-Friday, and be heading home Friday morning-ish. But then I realized that my husband might be free that Saturday, and so, maybe, just maybe, we could do it partly during the weekend, too. Celebrate Father’s Day together in a fun adventure place. Plus, it would be a closer place for him to meet us than his coming all the way home.

But, again, cost. So, working on it all. Also working on figuring out how to have him check in with me when he heads home at the end of the night. I was pretty much just waiting for his end time tonight before turning out the lights. But he never called, and he is already back at his hotel. So, yeah… figuring out that scheduling situation.

God, continue to guide us clearly, please. Keep us safe, and make us well and whole. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I need sleep. Period. Life is really hard to handle right now, and it’s made all the more difficult by my body’s not being ever rested. I need to sleep through the night. Consistently. But even once would be a blessing.

God, keep us safe and make us well, please. Encourage my husband in his work. Help him to be his best self in all that he does, and help him to believe that he is where you made him to be. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I delved a bit today into the practical side of the potential of traveling somewhere while my husband is gone for training and work. While some initial prospects had been disappointing, my research today was quite exciting. There will be many adventures for my family, I do believe. And we don’t even have to wait to begin, if we don’t want to do so. However, I’d like to keep our previous engagements for the moment, so things will have to wait for next week, at least.

Thank you, God, for my husband. Please, keep him and our daughter and me safe and well and happy. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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It almost seems harder now to be at home without my husband, as compared to before he came for his short visit. Perhaps it will wear off as more time passes, and I won’t be so utterly lonely and so miserable without him here at the end of each (or any) day.

God, guide us, please. Heal us, keep us safe, and make us well now and always. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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My husband came home for about thirty hours yesterday afternoon. It was a really good time being together as a family for a short while. When I dropped him off at the airport this afternoon, though, I totally broke down crying as I drove away. It was very unexpected, though I wasn’t too surprised. I’m tired to start, so my emotions are quickly to respond in general. Then I’m in a very difficult situation of being almost entirely on my own with our baby for eight+ months, to now, another three months of being fully on my own with her. It sucks. I want to be with my husband. And that isn’t an option right now. And that really sucks.

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