I don’t understand my daughter’s obsession with touching and grabbing and pulling on my nipple with her free hand while she nurses on the other nipple and breast. But it drives me insane with stress and tactile overwhelm.
Especially when I am exhausted at the end of the day.
God, help me, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.
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Sometimes, I just feel like a terrible parent. Right now, I feel like I’ve been a consistently poor parent for about a week plus.
And I can confirm that that is a really terrible feeling to have.
God, help me to be the mom you call me to be. In your name, I pray. Amen.
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My husband asked me if they were weird. I asked shin what he meant. We both ended up laughing. ‘Weird like me? Or weird to me??’ He didn’t say. I told him they were normal people, but that they had a lot in common with me.
And it turned out that they even had some of the weird stuff in common with us.
But what was really great about it all was that we had dinner with another couple. And they have a kid the same age as ours. Also their only kid so far. And we had a good time all together. It was like a normal Saturday night for people our age. But it was probably the first we’ve had in maybe two years. So, it was really nice to get to be normal people for a night. And especially so to get to do it with other people, and people whose company we enjoyed.
It was really cool.
And how wild that something so simple and standard and normal can be such a huge treat?(!)
Thank you, God. Please, keep us safe, make us well, and keep us together. Show us your will and how to do it. In your name, I pray. Amen.
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My daughter had a single nap today, and it was for about half an hour, if that. I thought that might be good for getting her to bed at a reasonable hour. Yet, somehow, she was wired and disinterested in going to sleep again until after midnight. Ugh.
I, of course, was wanting to go to bed already by close to nine. Yes, I am a night owl. But my body also wakes me up early and makes it hard to get back to deep sleep after then. So, my daughter’s night-owl-ness is kind of driving me crazy. I’m just so tired.
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Sometimes, a bizarre shift from routine is exactly what everyone needs.
And it’s funny how, even what has felt like a huge lack of routine can prove to be very routine. And the shift to something different for a day and night can be wildly relieving.
Thank you, God. Please, keep us safe and make us well and keep us together. Thank you for our home, too. Please, keep it well and always improving, too. In your name, I pray. Amen.
P.S. And, fortunately and surprisingly, on such a night, things have been such a physical and emotional and mental relief that, even when the baby randomly gets horrible gas in my bedroom right before I go to sleep, I am able to experience the hilarity of it, rather than be overwhelmed by frustration.
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Before, we had a very specific goal with a terrifyingly vague timeframe in which to reach that goal. That was the main focus of our brain space, and the main source of our stress. Now that that goal has been achieved, my husband and I both are getting to experience a huge variety of stresses in our daily lives. Things that previously didn’t get to occupy much brain space or caring, suddenly are huge energy-suckers and panic-inducers. This isn’t to say that they aren’t stress-worthy things, because they very much so are. Everything used to be eclipsed by this one huge stress, and so they paled in comparison; they didn’t get our time and attention in any form, including stress. All focus went to the big goal. But now, it feels almost as stressful as before, but also not at all. The not at all part is the fact that a huge weight has been lifted. The almost as stressful as before party is the fact that a plethora of strains and stresses now plague us, and the variety of them is new and overwhelming, a huge shift from one single overshadowing strain.
So, yeah, it still sucks. But in a different way. And there’s also a lot of relief, too. Just still an unreal amount of stresses for us right now.
God, guide us clearly and lovingly, please. Keep my husband and my baby and my safe and well and together, please. Show us the way financially and as a family. Thank you for this life and this love. In your name, I pray. Amen.
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Sometimes, life just sucks. The demon that has been haunting us and that we finally had removed is replaced by an even bigger one.
God, heal me, please, and free me from these demons. Protect me from all evil, that I may care for my family fully and happily and well. Make my family well and safe and together, and keep us so, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us and pray for us. Amen.
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I know it is completely normal that my baby consistently reaches out while nursing and pinches my other nipple between her fingers. But it sometimes just overwhelms me and, even, just plain pisses me off. She fiddles with everything within her reach while nursing already. Why can’t she just let it be on this one little thing and play with the rest of the stuff? You know? I actively cover up my free nipple while she nurses, and she will fight me hand or arm or whatever is covering it, repeatedly trying to break through to the nipple. Why? Why??
Ugh(!!!).
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My daughter is great, but she is also wild. Currently, it is 22:24, and she is gabbing away in the living room while I sit on the toilet, sorting through website stuff on my phone. I’m not even using the toilet. Just sitting on top. Kind of waiting for her even to notice that I’m not out there anymore and to come find me. A first sign that she’s ready for bed. Which she hasn’t done, because she isn’t ready to go to bed… Yikes. Haha
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List of thoughts have circled my head about this ice skating judging. But there seems to be only one further thought to share: Perhaps they do not judge on artistry and performance the way I would have expected (in combination with technique), which is why the other couple won. But, if they don’t judge that way, they should. It is a performance sport, and performing should be considered highly alongside technique, and not just replaced entirely by technique.
So, yeah…
Goodnight.
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