Wild

I went dancing tonight. Aside from the one country event I attended out of town with my husband a few years ago, I haven’t been out dancing to a real dance party for many, many years. Maybe eight or so? That seems about right. So, I was nervous about the people and worried I would suck. I was also worried my body wouldn’t be able to handle it. As it turns out, I still was able to do it all; my stamina is just really low, and I was worn out physically after about 15 dances over two-ish hours. Literally, muscle giving out because they can’t handle the effort and use anymore, they’re so tired. But it lined up well with my mental fatigue, as I was pretty fine with leaving then. I was ready to go home and get to bed, really.

All in all, it was an unexpected night, both in what I did and how it turned out to be such a positive experience.

Thank you, God. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Dinnertime

Tonight was something special for me. My husband offered to come home for dinner between things he was doing. It was going to be a late dinner (9:00 or 9:30), but he could come home for an hour or two to do that, if I wanted. Since it made sense enough, I agreed.

When he asked about whether we had food at home or if he should pick up something, I told him that picking up something would be best, because I wasn’t sure I had the capacity to figure out dinner tonight.

After he confirmed that he would pick up something, he only asked if we had balsamic, and I told him I was pretty sure we did. (All I could do in the moment, as I wasn’t at a place to be able to go check right away. But I did go confirm once I was able.) A while later, he got home. He managed our daughter after she woke up, which included some hefty crying bouts whenever he had to set her down to do something with two hands for a minute or two, and made us real dinner. Bake salmon, green beans, and sliced cherry tomatoes with balsamic. All I did was go pick some basil to put on my pieces of tomato, and set out a bowl for him at one point when he asked for it. Otherwise, he handled everything, and without even asking me a bunch of questions.

When he did asked about the balsamic, he shifted in the moment how he was asking. “Where is the balsamic, or where should I go to look for it?” Normally, he’ll ask for something and expect me to get it for him, instead of my just telling him. Tonight was the first time I’ve noticed a distinct effort on his part to do it himself. And that one question was representative of the whole dinner tonight. Everything was so different from usual, and in a very positive way. I had meant it when I’d said I wasn’t sure I had the capacity for figuring out dinner, and I had meant it. But it felt tonight that he truly got it and acted accordingly.

And it was awesome.

I truly felt supported and respected. Not because, ‘Oh, he was slaving for me while I hung out.’ But because he honored that I had communicated that it was beyond my capacity tonight. It was awesome, and I am grateful.

Thank you, God. Keep us safe and make us well, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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And so it begins

My husband came home tonight, having submitted his student and finished all other training that was doable for now. Tomorrow – though there is a slight chance he’ll do one more training session – he will be studying for the upcoming test, and preparing things for his new job and all the training that will involve. Much to do over the next few days before his first training course begins Monday. Here’s to hoping he gets it all done and maintains a joyful and positive outlook and attitude. Cheers!

Thank you, God. Guide us kindly and help us to sleep well each night. Keep us kind and loving with one another, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Dork

I saw a meme that I very much enjoyed tonight. It read, “Roses are red, April is grey. But in a few days,” and then it had a picture of Justin Timberlake.

Obviously referencing his wonderful delivery as a member of ‘NSYNC.

“It’s gonna be May!”

Love it. Makes me feel all cozy and giddy.

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Learning

I’m learning both the existence of and how to use many tools this week by force. I wanted the bathroom vanity installed. My husband finally communicated clearly that he didn’t want to do it. So, I got to work figuring it all out. It’s kind of cool and satisfying. But it’s also very stressful, because it is taking days and includes a whole lot of my daughter climbing on me and pulling on me and getting in the way and crying and crying intensely / screaming anytime I turn on a power tool. So, the hard work is extra hard.

But it’s cool to figure out new and useful things, and it’s cool to see the progress, slow as it is.

It also had me slightly annoyed tonight, thinking about how my husband always feels like he can’t do [fill in the blank] whenever he’s in charge of managing our daughter. Yes, it likely will take loads longer and be much harder with her around, but that’s what it takes. And it’s what I have to do every single day, all day and night (minus the rare occasion when he is home and takes care of her so I can do more work). Tonight was a particularly rough one, with her squeezing into the small area where I was using an oscillating saw with surprisingly high speed and trying to pry off the baseboard after cutting it and slicing up the caulk. Just lots of ways for her to get hurt, yet she kept coming back every time I turned off the saw, needing to be held, needing to nurse, needing to cry and push on me and hold onto me… It was a lot. But a lot is what I have to do these days.

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Aches

My whole body hurts, and it’s either because we did the ninja courses two days ago or because I’m getting sick. Both are equally likely, as I am very much weak these days and I very much feel like crap tonight.

God, grant me healing sleep tonight especially, please. Keep my husband and my daughter and me safe, make us well, and help us always to communicate lovingly with one another. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Prayer

God, heal my baby fully, please, and tonight. Grant that tonight’s sleep refresh and heal any and all ailments without her and without her. Keep us safe, make us well, and keep us happily together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Bedtime

When we get ready for bed, we always hit a point in the process at which I take most of the items off of my bedside table and pile them on the bed, out of reach of my daughter. Lip balm, Kindle, lotion, nail file, and a roll of toilet paper (I use it as tissues) – I toss them quickly onto the bed in order to avoid having my daughter chew on them or throw them on the ground and sit or step on them.

Tonight, when I sat on the bed, and began to take these items off the nightstand, my daughter rushed up and started grabbing the remaining items, handing them to me one by one, so that I could put them on the bed with me… 😛

I have a very smart baby. Haha

Thank you, God. Please, always guide us clearly and lovingly. Keep us safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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