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My mom doesn’t ever have the time to teach me to sew. She also never makes the time for it and then actually does it. She has, a few times, scheduled doing it, but then usually does something else the majority of that allotted time, and then rushes impatiently through something I am not on the right level to be able to grasp so quickly and with minimal explanation, and I am left barely any more knowledgeable than I began the day in terms of sewing.

Now, I’m working to get a few things done for the livestock show for my daughter and me to be able o match one another. We are also doing an expanded family matching when my stepsister comes to town next weekend. And I’m pretty sure I have to make some of those skirts and bandanas. However, I think my mom doesn’t grasp how difficult it is for me to get any sewing done at all, simply due to the fact that my daughter rarely lets me sew while she is indoors. I could have had everything finished days ago already. As it is, I will have to fight to get it done just before next weekend. And endure lots of intense crying in my daughter’s part. Which I don’t want to do, be the for her sake not for mine.

So, that all kind of sucks right now.

God, keep my husband and baby and me safe and well and together, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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So sleepy, but I have to set alarms for tonight regarding my period. This sucks.

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I don’t ever enjoy starting my period of menstruation. I have been relieved here and there, at times when I’ve been concerned of my reproductive health, like my last menstruation. But I don’t enjoy it. Tonight has been no exception. But I extra-less enjoy that it is at least a few days ahead of what my usually-correct tracking apps last told me about when to expect it. Of course, I had been surprised when it told me I still had another week. But I shouldn’t have trusted it. It went weird after last menstruation’s random anomaly of timing. It didn’t process that that very likely was a one-off, not something to be added to the average. 28-30 days is my normal, not 45 or whatever it was last time.

Anyway, that just added to the annoyance of the menstruation starting tonight.

And my daughter still has it out for hitting me and pinching nipples while nursing before bed, and it is really pissing me off and overstimulating me on multiple levels.

God, guide us, please, and be gentle with us. Keep my husband and me and our daughter safe and make us well and together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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My daughter now likes to hit me repeatedly while nursing to go to bed. Not cool. Of course, I stop her every time, explain it out, yada yada. But she has kept trying to do it the past few nights, and it is driving me nuts. As though I weren’t already there at the end of each day in the first place…

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I was pretty sure it was Monday this morning, but I asked someone anyway to be sure. I was way behind schedule, but it worked out perfectly, nonetheless. However, the reason I was so behind schedule was because I discovered that my husband usually handles the clocks in the house for DST – we don’t talk about how much I despise and disapprove of this event and its existence – after I had left the house, having thought I was 20 minutes early. But I was 40 minutes behind schedule, because it wasn’t 7:35, but 8:35.

At least, it was, indeed, 7:35, but our government decided to call it 8:35 for greedy, inconsiderate, and capitalistic reasons. So, yeah…

Walking away from this train of thought now. Goodnight!

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I have learned a higher appreciation for mean women with children. Having experienced it so many times already myself, I understand very clearly how a very kind woman can behave as a total bitch, as she is ridden with exhaustion from caring for the kids and, possibly, barely sleeping the night before… Or the nights the previous eight months. A mean mom might actually just be a bitch, of course. She might actually be a really nice person who is just severely struggling, and whose buttons were just pushed in succession.

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I love when my husband gets excited about something, and especially so when he shares with me about that something. However, he has a tendency to do it when I am utterly exhausted and ready to sleep, or else in a hurry to get something else done.

So, inconvenient. But I still love it. And I love him.

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Good day today as a whole, but it was very rough for me at several points. I didn’t sleep well last night, despite having given myself a decent amount of time to sleep. And we had to wait around for various reasons, extending our day by, possibly, a couple hours, which was almost doubling our time spent out. So, today was very difficult for me emotionally and in terms of overstimulation. I hit limits a few times. I gave up and I left my mom behind and I cried. And I felt better after crying, especially.

But also, if someone who has OCD is washing a child’s hands, please do not hand that child pieces of catfish to try while the person is actively washing the child’s hands. Seriously. Seriously(!). Haha. It didn’t help that it was near the end of the day and I was also very hot and ready to sit down and just be done with managing (and carrying) my daughter around public spaces for the day.

Anyway, the first sunflower seeds have sprouted through the surface! When we got home this evening, I discovered Day One’s seeds bursting through the surface of the soil. So, I guess it’ll be about four days for each of them, then. We shall see what tomorrow brings!

Thank you, God. Please, keep my husband and my baby and me safe and well and together. Bless this trip and our family’s future. Thank you for our home. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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My husband got to join us today! (Yay!!!) It was rather unexpected, but a total blessing, and I am grateful! I know our daughter enjoyed getting to spend so much time with him today, and I loved being with him, too. But I also loved that he got to see her do all these things at the rodeo, and participate with her on it all. It was a short time, but we still got it all in there. The last part was an outdoor fake farming adventure setup for kids to walk through and do pretend farming. My husband had wanted to skip it, but decided to stay with us for it in the end. I was glad he stayed, but hoped it wouldn’t make him frustrated at having to leave any later than he’d already been thinking. He really seemed like he was having a great time with her in it, though, and he told me afterward that it was worth staying. And that really touched me that he said that.

So, it was a good family day for us. It also happened to be sensory-friendly day, though I hadn’t known it until afterward. So, it was a very pleasant environment for us all. I loved it.

Thank you, God. Please, keep my husband and our daughter and me safe and well and together. Help us to do your will, and joyfully. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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We brought my dad with us today. I think it was a bit more effort than he had anticipated, having the baby and a stroller in our responsibility at all times. But I think he enjoyed it, nonetheless. I certainly enjoyed the time spent there and with him and, specifically, sharing the time there with him. It was a meaningful day for me. And I am grateful for the time with my dad and daughter today.

Shoe poked a lot of noses in the petting zoo today. Gently, but poked them all the same. She also poked one butthole. That’s the second butt-touch this week so far… haha.

Thank you, God. Please, grant good rest to my husband that he fulfill his volunteer shift well and happily tonight/this coming morning. Help us to have a great time together tomorrow. Keep him and our daughter and me safe and well and together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

P.S. Please, heal his snoring. Give him clear and easy breathing, especially when he sleeps in bed. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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