Sleep

My mom took the baby for a couple hours so that O could get things done at home. However, when I got home to do those things, I was so tired, I could barely think straight or even walk straight. So, I determine the best route was to take a nap. Even if I slept the whole time – though, that seemed very unlikely – I would have the energy to manage my daughter without screaming this evening, and likely would be able also to do some tidying at the same time. If I didn’t rest, I’d get probably a touch more done with the tidying, but would be even more exhausted when my daughter got home, promising for a very difficult evening together for both of us.

So, I told my mom the plan, just so she wouldn’t try calling me, used the bathroom, and then lay down for a nap. And I woke up to the door being unlocked two hours later. It was no joke that I had been exhausted. And I was so relieved that I’d trusted myself and taken the nap, because it was evident that I had needed it.

And the evening went quite reasonably after that. I did, in fact, get some tidying accomplished. I didn’t scream and yell at my daughter like I was worried I would have done. And I still rested some more after all the tidying and ‘dinner’. (Not sleep, but rested, and interacted calmly and seemingly lazily with my daughter from the sofa, still engaging but resting, too. And ‘dinner’ instead of dinner, because random bites of food really doesn’t count as dinner, but I still couldn’t manage much else after the food poisoning.)

I’m so grateful I got to sleep. Now, for some more, and this time with my daughter.

Thank you, God. Please, keep us and our home and things safe and well and together. Guide us always to be our best selves, the people you made us to be. Show us your way. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Recovery

Sometimes, I feel like the recovery days at the end of an illness are worse than the actual illness. People expect us to be full-force when we aren’t healed yet, and the performance they expect and require necessarily makes the effects of the illness linger even longer, often outstripping the time of the initial illness. All because we didn’t get the support we truly needed so that we could rest fully for another day.

I feel this often these days.

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Silver lining

The one positive I’ve found so far about having food poisoning is that I didn’t have to spend much time thinking about or making dinner tonight, a task that has normally been such a hassle and hardship these past many months.

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Bad fish?

I feel dreadful. My stomach is swollen and aches, and I feel like I might be about to hurl. This is horrible. I was supposed to be supporting my husband and helping him pack. Instead, I’m borderline crying in bed, nearly incapacitated by the intense discomfort and nausea.

God, heal me now, please, and keep us safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Bedtime

My husband is attempting to work with and help manage our daughter tonight for bedtime stuff. I think he is getting a true glimpse of why I cry so much when I have to do it all on my own every night.

Thank you, God. Keep us safe, make us well, and help us to be kind and joyful together. And, please, keep our home safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Baby

I love my daughter. It is very hard work to manage her and do what is best for her, all while taking care of myself in my recovery and daily needs. I often feel like I am doing a terrible job of both. I cry a lot. But it seems like I’m yelling and crying less than I was, so my efforts at improvement seem to be working. May they continue to do so.

God, guide us and keep us safe and well and joyful, please. And together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Apps

I really, really dislike having so many apps on my phone. I guess it’s well beyond time to organize them out a bit again, remove the ones I don’t need in my daily visuals, but still need to access here and there.

God, please, keep my husband well and safe and whole and successful with work and our relationship. Keeps us safe and make us well as a family, too. Thank you for this family. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Plumbing

I need plumbing help. At Home Depot tonight, I was given very not-helpful information by people who don’t know much about plumbing. That made things worse. And then, the piece I bought was the wrong size, because someone had put it into the wrong box of parts. That made it ever more worse than it had already gotten.

Just a big Ugh! tonight. I’ll have to go back daytime tomorrow and hope for better help.

God, guide me, please, keep us safe, and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Pricing

People can really be horrible. Current concern is about how I’d like to get this very convenient lunch-box-sized ice chest. It was unavailable on the store, so I checked secondhand, just to see. Immediately, I was met with loads and loads of listings in which people had purchased huge numbers of these and another similar item, and then were trying to sell them online for five to nine times the original price. Even though the world would be a much better place if those people hadn’t snatched up loads of those bags before people who actually wanted to use them could buy them.

It just reminds me of how I really do hate so many people. :/

God, guide me alway, please, and keep us safe and well and together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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