And so it begins

My husband came home tonight, having submitted his student and finished all other training that was doable for now. Tomorrow – though there is a slight chance he’ll do one more training session – he will be studying for the upcoming test, and preparing things for his new job and all the training that will involve. Much to do over the next few days before his first training course begins Monday. Here’s to hoping he gets it all done and maintains a joyful and positive outlook and attitude. Cheers!

Thank you, God. Guide us kindly and help us to sleep well each night. Keep us kind and loving with one another, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Dork

I saw a meme that I very much enjoyed tonight. It read, “Roses are red, April is grey. But in a few days,” and then it had a picture of Justin Timberlake.

Obviously referencing his wonderful delivery as a member of ‘NSYNC.

“It’s gonna be May!”

Love it. Makes me feel all cozy and giddy.

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Learning

I’m learning both the existence of and how to use many tools this week by force. I wanted the bathroom vanity installed. My husband finally communicated clearly that he didn’t want to do it. So, I got to work figuring it all out. It’s kind of cool and satisfying. But it’s also very stressful, because it is taking days and includes a whole lot of my daughter climbing on me and pulling on me and getting in the way and crying and crying intensely / screaming anytime I turn on a power tool. So, the hard work is extra hard.

But it’s cool to figure out new and useful things, and it’s cool to see the progress, slow as it is.

It also had me slightly annoyed tonight, thinking about how my husband always feels like he can’t do [fill in the blank] whenever he’s in charge of managing our daughter. Yes, it likely will take loads longer and be much harder with her around, but that’s what it takes. And it’s what I have to do every single day, all day and night (minus the rare occasion when he is home and takes care of her so I can do more work). Tonight was a particularly rough one, with her squeezing into the small area where I was using an oscillating saw with surprisingly high speed and trying to pry off the baseboard after cutting it and slicing up the caulk. Just lots of ways for her to get hurt, yet she kept coming back every time I turned off the saw, needing to be held, needing to nurse, needing to cry and push on me and hold onto me… It was a lot. But a lot is what I have to do these days.

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Aches

My whole body hurts, and it’s either because we did the ninja courses two days ago or because I’m getting sick. Both are equally likely, as I am very much weak these days and I very much feel like crap tonight.

God, grant me healing sleep tonight especially, please. Keep my husband and my daughter and me safe, make us well, and help us always to communicate lovingly with one another. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Prayer

God, heal my baby fully, please, and tonight. Grant that tonight’s sleep refresh and heal any and all ailments without her and without her. Keep us safe, make us well, and keep us happily together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Bedtime

When we get ready for bed, we always hit a point in the process at which I take most of the items off of my bedside table and pile them on the bed, out of reach of my daughter. Lip balm, Kindle, lotion, nail file, and a roll of toilet paper (I use it as tissues) – I toss them quickly onto the bed in order to avoid having my daughter chew on them or throw them on the ground and sit or step on them.

Tonight, when I sat on the bed, and began to take these items off the nightstand, my daughter rushed up and started grabbing the remaining items, handing them to me one by one, so that I could put them on the bed with me… 😛

I have a very smart baby. Haha

Thank you, God. Please, always guide us clearly and lovingly. Keep us safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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And yet…

My daughter still wants to bite me and scratch me and pinch my nipples while I’m trying to go to bed at night.

Oh, and a chicken was horribly murdered. One that I really liked. So, I’m super upset about that, actually.

God, guide us kindly, please. Keep us safe and make us well. Show us the way financially, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Sometimes

Sometimes, I hate my life. Not that I’m not grateful for it or that I don’t want it anymore. Just that I hate where I am at the moment and I hate that I have to be in that spot at all, let alone at present. I was there six years ago today. And, apparently, again two years ago today. And also today. These long phases of super hard daily life combined with an unclear and undetermined amount of time are always unbelievably difficult. And I hate having to be stuck in them.

Granted, each of the other two I mentioned ended up turning out spectacularly not too long after that particular day… I mean, it was months both times, but that’s not a terribly long time. It just sucked so badly until it resolved. And I’m there again, hoping for an end to hating my life, knowing there’s definitely something better on the other side of this… but still really struggling to make it through to that point.

God, guide us, please, and grant us joy. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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