Prayer

God, heal my baby fully, please, and tonight. Grant that tonight’s sleep refresh and heal any and all ailments without her and without her. Keep us safe, make us well, and keep us happily together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Bedtime

When we get ready for bed, we always hit a point in the process at which I take most of the items off of my bedside table and pile them on the bed, out of reach of my daughter. Lip balm, Kindle, lotion, nail file, and a roll of toilet paper (I use it as tissues) – I toss them quickly onto the bed in order to avoid having my daughter chew on them or throw them on the ground and sit or step on them.

Tonight, when I sat on the bed, and began to take these items off the nightstand, my daughter rushed up and started grabbing the remaining items, handing them to me one by one, so that I could put them on the bed with me… 😛

I have a very smart baby. Haha

Thank you, God. Please, always guide us clearly and lovingly. Keep us safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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And yet…

My daughter still wants to bite me and scratch me and pinch my nipples while I’m trying to go to bed at night.

Oh, and a chicken was horribly murdered. One that I really liked. So, I’m super upset about that, actually.

God, guide us kindly, please. Keep us safe and make us well. Show us the way financially, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Sometimes

Sometimes, I hate my life. Not that I’m not grateful for it or that I don’t want it anymore. Just that I hate where I am at the moment and I hate that I have to be in that spot at all, let alone at present. I was there six years ago today. And, apparently, again two years ago today. And also today. These long phases of super hard daily life combined with an unclear and undetermined amount of time are always unbelievably difficult. And I hate having to be stuck in them.

Granted, each of the other two I mentioned ended up turning out spectacularly not too long after that particular day… I mean, it was months both times, but that’s not a terribly long time. It just sucked so badly until it resolved. And I’m there again, hoping for an end to hating my life, knowing there’s definitely something better on the other side of this… but still really struggling to make it through to that point.

God, guide us, please, and grant us joy. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Biting

My daughter seems to have decided that it is a fun game to bite me, be it on my belly, my ribs, my arm, or my nipples. Biting is the game, and it is hilarious. For her, at any rate, until I put her on the ground while I stay on the bed. Then she cries almost immediately, usually as I cry in bed from the physical pain she’d just caused me. Ugh… Let’s move past this, please.

God, guide us, please. Keep my husband and our daughter and me safe and well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Mix and match

I don’t understand the point of making mix and match food storage containers with lids that don’t actually fit all the containers they’re supposed to fit…

Ugh!

Must resolve problem asap, or else I’ll never be able to use them all. And I was really excited about these. Silver lining is that they should still work – just have to find the right lids. Gives me something to accomplish for the week now, so I can check an item off the list mentally once it’s all handled. That’ll be some much-needed dopamine, to be sure. I just hope we get there quickly and easily.

God, guide us, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Wild baby

She had an hour and a half during which she napped this afternoon, then about thirty minutes this evening. That’s it. She’s been up since around 9:30am today, which gave her about an hour and a half less than usual sleep for the night. And we went to the beach, where she ran around like crazy the whole time, and fell a bunch and got nailed by waves but kept going. Then we went to a wind-filled lunch. Then she played with my husband outside some more on the sea wall. Then we did the outside play before the basketball game. Then she ran around the basketball game a bunch. And now she’s been playing at home for at least a couple hours, with a math thrown in there a while ago.

It is 00:43. How is she still wild with energy right now??? I can barely think straight or keep myself upright, yet I hear her hollering to my husband in the other room, playing like any old afternoon, freshly recovered from a good nap.

My baby is such a night owl.

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Tired

I’m just so tired. I want to be a great mother and a great wife and a great person. I want to take great care of myself. Yet I am so tired right now, I can barely function, let alone be good or great and any of these roles.

God, guide me, please. Keep us safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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