Author: hannah.ananas

Getting ready for bed just now, I ended up having multiple pretend phone calls with my daughter. She was holding a small temperature gauge and I used my fingers. It was great.

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I am so tired, both physically and emotionally, that I don’t mind having canceled our trip. But I want to be a person who takes such trips and does have the energy and interest to take them. I’m happy to be home and in my own bed tonight. To have no pressure about where to be or what to do tomorrow. But I’m also sad that I didn’t really want to do that trip in the first place. It stressed me out too much and had turned into a very expensive thing that was originally supposed to be mostly free. So, there are many positives about not doing the trip, including not having to deal with smoke exposure from the wildfires. But it’s surprising how okay I feel about not going. Only a little sad, really. Not the way most people would feel if their super awesome hiking and outdoorsy vacation got canceled the night before it was supposed to begin.

So, feeling that right now.

And I really miss my husband and just want to spend time with him right now. Maybe that’s why I don’t mind so much. It wasn’t really going to be a vacation with him. Just a brief hello, then a lot of time trying to have a great time without him to share it with me and our daughter. Yeah…

God, guide us, please, and make us well and keep us safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I let down my husband tonight and I wasted some money. My daughter and I still could have tried for the trip in the morning, but the chance of not making it to our desired city in time for the event we were attending was just very great, it didn’t feel worth the risk. Especially considering that, if we didn’t make it in time, that would mean that we had gotten stranded overnight at a random airport. Not a cool prospect. Neither was taking longer flights, nor was spending all day in airports, waiting around and hoping. Yes, there was a chance it all could work out great. But there was also a large chance it wouldn’t.

Add onto that that the trip was going to cost us a lot of money, and money that we hadn’t expected to have to spend for this trip when we started planning it and agreed to it. Removing the stress and the hassle of trying to make the flights work, and replacing the immensely high bill with just a single penalty of a few hundred dollars just kind of felt worth it tonight. It was a huge bummer for me – and it still is – but I’m glad we did it.

And the silver lining is that we know how to plan better for next time. Always a learning opportunity for growth.

Thank you, God. Please, keep us safe and make us well. Give us always safe travels, especially my husband. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Got some things accomplished today, both in terms of doing things with the extended family here and in terms of handling some shopping that was needed before our trip on Sunday. Lots of accomplishments today. Just need to find the bandages tomorrow that the store absolutely did not have tonight, stupidly. And annoyingly. It was an awful HEB. Just awful.

Anyway, I’m exhausted. But I am feeling better about our trip Sunday now. Still more to sort before then, but hoping to get a good night’s rest tonight first, and again tomorrow night!

Keep us safe and make us well, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I have reminders to make sure I take care of my nails every so often. I usually have just taken care of my nails when I get the reminders. This time has not been so, and it has been awful. We are on a trip for a few days in a place where I can’t unpack things easily. So, I haven’t been able to get to my nail file when I need it. It has been awful. Do people truly understand how devastating it is not to be able to sue a nail file when one needs one? Just terrible… terrible…

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I didn’t have to get my daughter test for bed tonight. I also didn’t have to wear her down before bedtime. My mom got her ready for bed, simply because she was following my mom around when my mom went tog et ready for bed. And my cousin’s kid was running around playing with my daughter – he’s just four years older – for like a solid hour and a half, maybe two hours, both inside and outside just before that. So, my baby got some good playtime in this evening. Now, she’s passed out atop my mom, snoring away happily. I only had to hold her and nurse her a few times over a couple hours while she finished winding down. (She did get ok the shower with me when I showered just now, but that was mostly because she wanted to nurse, and so I did that and hen let the shower occupy her while I worked on getting myself ready for bed.)

It’s wild how much more energy I feel I have right now… how much less worn down I feel mentally. Just… wild…

Thank you, God. Please, keep my husband and our daughter and me safe and well and whole. Help us all to sleep well each night and to have a great time together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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We’re supposed to be joining family at an Airbnb tomorrow. I have to take an early morning flight for this. And the family will have to be moving out of the Airbnb tomorrow due to a roof leaks en repairs work that needs to be done as soon as possible for that. And the place they recommended as similar/comparable looks awful. I don’t want to touch those beds, let alone sleep in them for several nights. Yikes.

I asked my mom if we can just get a hotel instead. I’m not into this. We shall see what she says in the morning.

God, guide us kindly and clearly, please. Help us to have a great time. Keep us safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I used to hit overwhelm at a certain point. I could handle certain things. Now, however, I can’t handle the same things, because my starting point is nowhere near where it used to be. Imagine you hadn’t slept through the night for several days in a row and were utterly exhausted. Now, go do something that was always hard for you to handle emotionally/mentally, even after a good night’s sleep. That’s where I am, but a year and a half into that not-sleeping situation, and already hitting overwhelm limits every day from the exhaustion of raising a baby almost 24/7 solo. So, yeah. It’s really stinking hard. And I just can’t handle the same stuff I used to be able to handle.

And people get mad at me for not being able to do that. And that sucks.

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Okay, half an hour earlier to bed than last night. A positive. Again only one nap for the day, but kind of late. However, much earlier than the nap yesterday. Also a positive.

Thank you, God. Please, keep us safe, make us well, and give us great sleep tonight and each night. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I thought we might be going to bed early tonight. My daughter never took a nap during the daytime. So, when she finally fell asleep around 6 o’clock this evening, I thought we might be able to go to bed then. However, she was up within an hour and a half, which is shorter than her nap is if she only has one nap in the day. And I’ve only just gotten her back to sleep. At 1:15 in the morning. This has been an awfully long and tiring day. I really hope we get to sleep for long stretches tonight. 

Thank you, God, for the live and support I received today. Please, keep us and my husband safe, make us well, and help us to sleep well and to be together often and happily. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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