I genuinely work each day to be better than who I was the day before. I work to be more the person God calls me to be in this life, to be my best self, constantly in life, and I am always looking to see how newly I can improve myself and my ways of living. And I aim to encourage and empower others to do the same for themselves, both indirectly and, sometimes, directly, openly.
And it is really hard when the people around me pointedly don’t do this, when those close to me not only resist it, but actively grow angry and defensive if I even comment on or question a behavior of theirs… including if it is something that is quite strongly affecting me (let alone others) in a negative way.
Wanting to be my best self, and actively working to be that, is so much a part of who I am, it is hard even to be around those who, for lack of a better way of putting it, seem angry at me for both wanting this and pursuing this. It makes it feel like they don’t want me around at all, nor do they want anything to do with me. That isn’t to say that that is the case – that’s just how it feels. Which still sucks.
Post-a-day 2024
hannah ananas 