Improvement

Today was actual classes, and it was much better than yesterday. I was exhausted by the end in a different way. There was satisfaction in today, mixed with the exhaustion. I have much to figure out in order to find balance in my daily schedule. However, I think it will turn out okay in time. The girls are hard to manage while worn down as I am. However, most said they have been around pregnant women before, and they seemed very understanding of the few behaviors that I said likely would be common for me these next several months. (Much more so than the adults have been, sadly…)

The schedule is a bad one. The concept is good, but implementation is bad. Not having any kind of break for four hours is not okay. However, a fellow teacher told me that I can shorten one of the classes a bit in order to create a break for both the students and for myself. A much-needed break at that. Hopefully, that will work. I suspect it would help immensely, so I look forward to giving it a go. I’m a bit nervous about getting in trouble for doing it, but I think I have to do it – I was not okay today without it.

I also plan to incorporate some meditative music during handwriting practices – both parts are new for me – so that we can have some calm and quiet-esque time in class, as well. 80 minutes straight of chatter is a lot for me. Let alone having it for four hours straight. So, working on some better energy balance in my lesson chunking, as they call it in education.

God, thank you for this day and this job. Help me to find balance in it. Help me to be a good teacher to these girls, while helping me to take care of myself and this baby. Help us all to be loving and forgiving and understanding – help us to pursue and fulfill your will. Keep my husband safe, please. Keep me and the baby safe, too, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2024