Sometimes, I feel like I wish I weren’t so strong. God won’t give us anything we can’t handle, right? If I weren’t so strong, I’d get easier stuff. But I guess it all would feel just as hard as it does now, because it is all relative to what we can handle.
So, yes, it sucks sometimes being so strong. But it would suck being weaker, too.
So, I’d rather be strong and taking the hard stuff than weak and taking the weak stuff.
But I always will acknowledge that it is still tough. ‘My yoke is easy and my burden is light.’ But they’re still a yoke and a burden – just ones we can handle as we are. Life doesn’t get easier. We just get better stuff the hard stuff.
And yes, depression makes all that sound like lame nonsense that doesn’t help anything at all. But I still trust God. More than ever now, when I feel like I can’t do it. Because I know that I can’t do it. He has to do it through me and with me. I am in His hands and I am safe. I trust Him to use me wisely and with love, intention, and integrity.
Thank you, God, for loving me and for making me. Make me and this baby well, please. Make us safe. Keep my husband safe. And help us all to be our best selves in this life, now and always. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
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