Very tired. This week is getting harder each day. But I was able to say aloud how I truly hate my job and I don’t want to be there. It doesn’t mean that I don’t want to have the job still. I do want to have the job and to earn the money from it. I also like the students and the teaching itself most of the time. But I also hate the job as a whole and don’t really want to be there almost ever right now. I am sick and growing a baby and dealing with a lot around that fact. But this is where I need to be right now, so this is where I am.
So, yeah. I’m appreciative of and want to keep my job. And I also hate it. And it feels good and, even, somewhat relieving to be allowed to acknowledge that out loud. I don’t have to like my job or to want to be at it each day. It’s okay for me to hate it and still want to have it and do it. And I do.
Thank you, God, for this job that is so close to home and that pays very decently for a teaching job. Help me to be well and help the baby to be whole and well and safe, please. Keep my husband safe. Help us always to follow your will and to see it clearly at each step. Keep my grandma well, please, and my family safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
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