Yikes

I accomplished loads today in the house. And yet it still looks like a disaster. And the cleaning couple is coming tomorrow morning at eleven to evaluate the house and give an estimate. They might decline altogether even to take on cleaning our house. If they do, so be it. As I mentioned to my husband already, I intend to let them know that we are still in the middle of rearranging for the baby room to exist (which looks great, by the way, though still unfinished), and also that we really aren’t ready to have anyone come in to clean yet, but that we just wanted to start getting the ball rolling, because we know it can take a while to find the right person or people. I didn’t say anything but the fire tower to my husband, but I mean all of it at this point. It seems the best option at present. I have no interest in going psycho for the next nine and a half hours to make the house falsely look good, and then have to recover physically and then redo most of what I would be moving now. So, yeah… be exposed for having a house that is currently mid-disaster, and accept the judgement for it. Hopefully, they will trust us and understand that it is truly only temporary and actually will be better within the next two weeks.

After all, we have the shower next weekend, and that thing requires the house actually to be ready. So, this is a good warm-up for that, given the immensely lower stakes of this. My husband, especially, I believe, needed this extra kick. It helps me, too, but I have been working each day already to my max. Today, again, I went beyond my max. I think my husband will accomplish much in the next several hours, and I am glad. I am just hoping he doesn’t just throw it all in the garage and create more work for after tomorrow morning. I have a feeling he might do just that, and then want to avoid the even bigger workload that then will exist… O so hope he just actually does a lot of good work, and then only moves the necessities out to the garage, keeping the garage space fully functional.

Anyway, that’s my mind right now, minus the strain of pregnancy and feeling totally worn out physically and emotionally and mentally…

God, help us to do your will. Help us to take these important steps to have our house be the home we long for it to be. Help us to create and comfortable, spacious living space over these next several days, and to maintain its beauty and space going forward. Make me and the baby and my husband well and safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2024