Choosing

So, the egg ends out signals to tell the speed where it is, essentially calling them to itself. Then, it chooses which sperm to let inside, preventing all others from entering. (I guess some eggs can’t choose between two sperm, and so decide to accept them both, giving us one version of twins!)

Therefore, we can say that the egg produced by my body chose the sperm to create this baby. On a deeper level, my soul selected the sperm for the being it would help to create. The sperm determines the gender. So, my soul knowingly chose this sperm and its connected gender for this child.

Why would my whole entire being want this to be a girl, and yet my actual being would have selected a Y-chromosome sperm?

I cried very hard just now, thinking about this.

God, help me to trust you with ease. Make me and the baby and my husband well, please, and keep us safe. Thank you for our home and our building family. Help us to pursue and fulfill your will, being our best selves more and more each day. Keep us safe, please. Make this delivery legal and safe and easy for us all, please. Grant me your strength and comfort throughout it all, and help me to deliver this whole, healthy, perfect, beautiful baby. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2024