Space

At this point, it feels like there is not any more space. My belly is so full and heavy, but it barely even moves when I lift it now. A week ago, I could lift the whole thing maybe an inch or two. It helped relieve sciatic pains and made it easier to walk. But today, just now, it seems like I can barely make it move. It mostly just sits there, full and heavy, when I lift up on it. It still will raise up, but very little compared to how much it moved a week ago.

Well, I think the thing said the baby is gaining about half a pound a week right now. So, perhaps that lines up with the belly changes…

Ugh… My body is dealing with a lot right now. I think my brain is waiting for our appointment on Monday to relax. If all goes well then, when the midwife comes to the house to establish everything needed for the labor and delivery, I think my brain and my body will relax on a level we have been incapable of considering lately. We have been on high alert lately, anxious to get everything checked off the lists, including the stuff that never made it onto the lists. (Yes, being realistic isn’t always my game.) So, yeah… once I get the okay from the midwife on Monday, I think my body and mind will be calm again and will prepare in a different way going forward.

God, help us to do well by you and by our baby. Make me and the baby and my husband well, please, and keep us safe and together. Thank you for this life and marriage and pregnancy and opportunity. Help me to be my best self each day through your love. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2024