Well, the chiropractor said my body is doing all the things, and I can expect the baby as soon as today. So, all this weird shifting and odd-feeling stuff is directly part of the process of heading into labor and birth. Good to know.
Actually, it makes me feel not-so-crazy. Because I have been feeling kind of crazy the past couple days. And no one quite seems to be able to relate or understand what’s going on for me, be it physically or mentally or emotionally. Having her declare today that everything has been directly tied to this next step sent so much relief through me.
I don’t know quite how soon it will happen, but it truly is happening.
As a note, my husband has actually been doing a great job of getting how hard it has been for me this past week, and of telling me that I’m doing a good job. He’s even rubbed my back while saying it some of the times. He’s doing a better and better job of supporting me in ways that make a true difference for me, and it has made a difference. Pregnancy is a very weird even where the mother doesn’t really do anything, not in the active sense of the word. But much is happening within her and with her. So, when I feel stupid for being overwhelmed and like everything is just so hard right now, and I straight up mean that existing is hard, it makes sense. It does sound stupid. But it also is 100% the truth that existing is hard right now. That’s the weirdness of pregnancy. All we have to do it stay alive, and that suddenly becomes one of the hardest things we’ve ever done.
At least, for some women, that’s how pregnancy goes. It’s a full spectrum, and I can’t even relate to the ladies at the opposite end who feel great and amazing during pregnancy. Yes, I feel absolutely blessed at the miracle happening within me. But I have not enjoyed most of the experiences tied to raising this miracle within me. Grateful? Absolutely. Enjoyment? Rare.
So, anyway, it’s coming. 🙂
Oh, and my husband even said tonight that my belly is clearly lower down than it has been. I noticed somewhat yesterday and definitively today that my leggings didn’t fit around my hips anymore, as compared to two days ago. They sat comfortably just below my belly before. But they barely have space to sit there while I’m standing, and they nearly cut off circulation entirely if I sit down with them on, just in that span right below my belly. No wonder my underwear started rolling down in the front so badly yesterday and the day before. Haha I hadn’t even thought of that until just now…
Indeed, it is coming. 😀 ❤
Thank you, God. Please, help my husband pass his tests and do a great job with his learning and training and flying. Guide him clearly forward on this path toward taking care of our family financially while doing something he truly loves. Guide us both clearly and gently as parents to our children and as partners to one another. Make us and the baby well, and keep us all safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2025
(Caught it before the number this time, but still at the last second!)
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