Two weird experiences here. Both are… intimate, we’ll say. Definitely explicit in their revelations, so be forewarned now(!).
The first is one that gets me on a regular basis, especially in recent days and weeks. It is a bizarre experience in the first place to have something within one’s belly move independently of one’s body. Period. Now, eventually, I did adjust to the baby’s movements and pushes outward and all that jazz. However, one time where I still have not fully adjusted – it still kind of shocks me and feels both comical and quite weird – and can’t fully wrap my head around it is when I’m sitting on the toilet in the morning, going through the simple yet genuine morning bowel movement, and my belly sidedly starts jolting around and stretching.
I mean… Excuse me, baby, but I’m not just lounging on a chair here. I am actively employing my bowels. And I would appreciate it very much if you wouldn’t be so active right now, both because it’s weird and because it’s shaking things up that I’m attempting to relax and release right now…(!!!)
So, yeah, that one’s weird.
The second one is a whole ‘nother lever of bizarre. It started several days ago. The baby is head down, okay? That means its hands can easily push downward on everything near the bottom of my womb. So, essentially, the baby’s head is pushing downward on my pelvis and vagina. At times, however, the head isn’t engaged with the pelvis, and there’s some wiggle room. What the baby has done during several of these times has been a sort of left-right-left-right tap… with its hands… downward onto the inside of my vagina. Quite literally, it is as though the baby is knocking on the door to get out. Tap-tap-tap-tap! it goes on the inside of my vagina… no big deal. Like it’s checking if this is the fifth doorway through which it will be going to get to its next location.
I asked the midwife about this one specifically, and she said it is both normal and a totally weird experience to have. That made me feel better. Because I certainly felt strange saying that it felt like the baby was knocking on my vagina like a front door to someone’s home. But they apparently just do that sometimes. I guess they’re stretching out their arms and hands over the head, and, well, that’s just where they reach(!).
So, yeah… also very odd. Haha
That’s what I have for tonight! So many emotions and thoughts about different things, but I’m going to leave it there for now. Goodnight.
God, be with us, please. Grant us this easy and love-filled home-birth we desire and for which we have been preparing. Make this baby and me and my husband well and whole, please, and keep us safe. Help me husband to find the perfect work for us all, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2025
(Remembered as I started it tonight! And almost forgot by the time I finished typing it!)
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