I had never had stitches or sutures before birth. Having them be on one’s vagina for the first experience is definitely a rough one. This really, really sucks. It hurts terribly at this point, and I wish it just would stop aching so dreadfully.
But I am grateful that it doesn’t sting when I urinate anymore. Those were an extremely rough couple of days, having both the ache and pain and the added stinging whenever I went to the bathroom.
I can barely shuffle my feet forward now, though, because of the stitches pains. Sitting still doesn’t work. And I can’t stand for very long either before my vagina really starts to ache, I guess from gravity.
We tried an outing today, somewhat out of necessity. My grandma is moving tomorrow, so we stopped by at the en did my uncle’s 70th birthday celebration in the open restaurant in my grandma’s high rise building. It was likely the last time all of that family would be gathered together, especially given where my grandma is moving (and considering how old she already is and that she isn’t in the best of health).
So, we went. We were about to leave, but my grandma really wanted to be able to hold the baby, which had to be done in a certain chair in her apartment, for safety reasons. (My grandma is 94.) I agreed to a quick trip down to her apartment for this. However, there was a whole debacle of her needed to go get cleaned up in the bathroom but not wanting to, and her being nasty to the caretaker and to my aunt and yadda yadda… finally, my mom got her to go get cleaned up, which took a while in and of itself. Then she finally held the baby for a few minutes and apparently cooed and awed over it the whole time. It was definitely worth it, but I was lying down in the hallway at this point, because I couldn’t stand anymore, there weren’t any chairs in the hallway, and the apartment was far too warm for me to stand being in it.
So, I was beyond done and it was too much for me to be there that long.
If we had actually left after the upstairs portion, I think it would have been an acceptable or amount of time for me to be out. But the added time downstairs was just far too much for me. Also, that there was almost no food left, even though my aunt had supposedly ordered with us included in the count, made it harder for me – I was supposed to be having some good barbecue. Instead, I got a total of two bites of protein, and some pie and banana pudding (which I need to stop trying, because I never like it)… 
So, yeah, having had food would have also helped immensely for me. Nonetheless, the visit was too long for me to be out and about. Seems like an hour tops is where we are right now. And also in a very comfortable and easy environment without normal people or noise. My family were very calm and chill today, and they were the only ones around, which was the perfect combo for a try at an outing. It just was too long.
Anyway, glad we did it. Glad my grandma got to see and spend time with her little great-granddaughter – she just sat staring at the baby in the stroller the whole time we were upstairs. It was kind of adorable. And I’m glad we got to be part of the last gathering at this awesome high rise where my grandma has lived the past couple years. It has been a great place to visit and spend time together. I will miss it.
Thank you, God, for my family. Thank you, especially for my husband. Thank you for our daughter. Make us well, please, and keep us safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2025
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