Better

The midwife checked out my perineum and vagina today in our appointment. (She also confirmed that I actually hadn’t caused the breathing distress of my child that first night, and that it truly was an accidental situation that I, myself, saved. So, even if I did play a partial role in its all having happened, it was fully because of my attentiveness that the issue was discovered and addressed so immediately. Also, the baby knows how to breathe now, and I can rest more easily in that knowledge.)

She said everything looked really good. However, the super sharp, pokey feeling I have been having had a distinct culprit: the end of a suture that was left long (unnecessarily). Remember, a doctor stitched up everything, not the midwife. But the midwife went ahead and gently got in there and snipped off the two little ends (one was actually close to a quarter inch long, the longer piece). I haven’t had a single poke since. I think she resolved the most intense issue I was having in my vagina… the other part that has still been hurting somewhat constantly, but in a tight and pulling way, not sharp and stinging, she saw clearly, as well. It is in deeper part of where I had to be stitched up, and those stitches are still doing their job of helping things reconnect and heal. She expects they will not dissolve for another week or so. However, that pain is much more of a tolerable pain than the pokey one. But it is nice to know why that area hurts more than everywhere else. And that all is going in the right direction. (And that parts of me didn’t grow together that are not supposed to be connected. I was genuinely worried about that one!)

So, that was all really positive. She offered silver something to help healing go faster. However, my body reacted negatively to the idea, and the thought of having any further pain in an area that currently has a lessened pain that most likely will continue to improve… it just didn’t seem necessary. So, didn’t do that.

Anyway, sleep. Goodnight.

P.S, We named our daughter today. It was very special for us. Thank you, God. Amen.

Post/a-day 2025