Naptime

Well, I believe I have discovered how to nap. I was wondering how I had been able to nap in the first few days but not recently. She consumes more milk at each nursing now and sleeps for longer stints as a whole (though, mostly at night). Why am I getting less sleep? During the day, anyway…

And then I discovered it.

She sleeps well on or against one of us, a body. If she’s on a pillow or in the swing, she will sleep a much shorter time just about every time. Yes, chances are much higher with the swing than with the pillow. However, neither compares to the efficiency of letting her pass out on top of or snuggled up against one of us.

So, today, after I nursed her at one point, she burped quickly, and I just lay her down on top of me, with pillows on either side in the lounge chair for extra support and safety, got my husband to put some blankets on me, leaned the chair back, and passed out. We had a lovely nap together, and I woke up well before she did, letting me be mentally prepared for her to nurse as soon as she did wake. Such a blessing.

I hope this continues to work. It not only gives me the rest I need, but the bonding of it is incomparable. I think it has helped immensely with the feelings of being used and abused. I still feel that I am being used, but the sense of abuse has dropped significantly. And that’s after only three naps together. I hope it continues to improve with more snuggle time – it just feels right this way. Perhaps it’s all just part of the design of it all… most likely, it is.

Ha… I hadn’t even though of that, it’s just been so hard… I’m grateful it seems to be changing for the better now.

Thank you, God. Make us well and keep us safe, please, especially my husband and our daughter and me. Thank you for this home and this family and this life. Guide us to be our best selves, and willingly so. Help us to follow your will freely. Grant us a clear and positive and fulfilling path forward financially, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025