There was some major indigestion today for the little one, which meant my husband and I both got overwhelmed. When he left to run errands in the late afternoon, I was incredibly hungry to begin. When the baby started freaking out with her indigestion, it made everything go downhill very quickly for me. My abdomen still cannot stand me up, so I have to use both arms and both legs to get myself upright every time. Holding a baby and doing this is nigh impossible, extremely difficult, and very uncomfortable, borderline painful. I had to do it several times today, which massively sucked. All while the baby was crying.
I know I want to have this baby and keep it and do all these parenting things. I just don’t want to be in physical pain anymore – it makes everything else so intensely difficult. And it makes me want it all just to chill out and leave me alone for a while. So, I’m going to bed and not really caring much about anything else. I’m hoping I might get some rest, which is a guarantee at making life feel much better at this point.
God, heal me, please, and keep me and the baby and my husband safe and well. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2025
hannah ananas 