Trendy moms

A local mom with kids aged two and four was talking to me about a baby carrier. She sent me the link to it, and we were discussing all the good things about it.

And then I commented on the photos for the carrier on its website. I said that I want to be trendy like the mom in the photos. She laughed and replied, “I can confidently say I never looked that put together.” I told her how I quite truly feel that I often look rather homeless when I go out right now. Nothing fits right, including the maternity clothes I had been wearing while pregnant. Rather, the few things that do for right are a massive hassle for nursing. So, I’m typically in a baggy t-shirt and pajama shorts right now. And my hair is in a messy knot atop my head, adding to the disastrous ensemble.

The tentative plan is to put hidden zippers – you know, the hidden style, not that they’re actually hidden fully – in my Mexican dresses. I wore them through most of the pregnancy, and my mom already added pockets to all of them. Might as well soup them up a little more and make them last for even more of the journey of parenthood. And that would be much nicer than my current use of them: shorts underneath, and pulling the whole dress up when the baby needs to nurse. Yes, in public. 😛

Anyway… I have been making a real effort to help myself emotionally and mentally by putting myself more together each day, and especially so when we go out. But it has been especially hard due to the whole fit-feed combo for everything. The things that do fit aren’t good for nursing in public, and sometimes at all. And looking a disaster adds to feeling like a disaster. Looking fabulous helps to feel fabulous. I am fabulous. Now I just want to look it again and feel it again.

God, help me to love myself. Help me to heal myself and my baby and my husband. Grant us your love and ease within our family. Help us to be the family you call us to be, the best we can be. Make us well, please, and keep us safe, always. Thank you for my husband and this life and our home and our baby. Be always with us clearly. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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