Charity

I have been giving much lately. I have given much time and effort, and I also have given much in terms of financial support via items to my brother and sister-in-law lately. They are having a baby in July. I have given them so much already that we don’t or didn’t need but that can be useful for them. However, most of it could have been easily sold to benefit us financially. The total amount would have been kind of a lot, too.

However, I felt called to be generous with it all. Regarding my time and effort, I have spent hours working on putting together a registry for them, as well as writing info for each item to explain it and my thoughts on it etc. I even did a chunk of research for them on the stuff. And I’ve had to do all of this either once the baby has gone to bed, sacrificing my sleep time, or while actively caring for the baby, like nursing or burping it. It hasn’t been easy.

Again, though, I felt called to be generous and do this. And I do want to do it all. There is still more to be done regarding their shower and its invitations.

Sometimes, it is hard to feel it is worth the effort. When my sister-in-law throws a fit or complains to my brother or whatever, it can be very hard for me. Not only do I love my brother and want him to feel loved and supported, but I also want there to be acknowledgement of the fact that I am putting a crazy amount of effort into this all for them. Not only is it already a lot of time and effort, but I’m doing it while still recovering for birth and while caring for our newborn. Not to mention the trauma with which w were presently dealing. For whatever reason, saying “Thank you” or “Thanks” just isn’t enough to feel seen and acknowledged.

Hmm…

Post-a-day 2025