One would think that I might use effectively the time given to me while breastfeeding to accomplish any of the zillion things on my to-do lists that can be done on my phone… The baby’s eyes are closed and she is calm and stable for a bit. (And, if her eyes ever aren’t closed, which is rare, I give her my full attention immediately.) However, what do I typically do while she nurses with closed eyes? Watch her nurse. Gaze at her adoringly. And, equally often, stare at her in a daze of exhaustion. I don’t even take the time and the free arm to massage my sore neck. Instead, I hunch my shoulders and point my head downward to watch her, only increasing the neck and shoulder soreness. And my free hand typically ends up holding her feet in turns. Yes, they are adorable. But does it help my physical state much? Not at all.
Fortunately, I think it does all help with bonding between us now and down the line. However, it also feels wasteful of time when the baby is not needing both my hands and full attention. That’s the part that’s hard for me about it all. I have so little free time available to me to do even the necessary tasks to maintain the house – free time, meaning time I am free to do something other than tend to the baby directly – it feels like I just take advantage of every opportunity of being free. Though, I feel like sleeping would win out over phone stuff anyway, too…
Speaking of which… goodnight.
Post-a-day 2025
hannah ananas 