Needs

I just want to cuddle with you a lot these days
Will you come touch me and love me a bit before you go to bed?

I just sent these two messages to my husband. He is still sick – shocker – and sleeping in the guest room so he can sleep upright. So, we don’t get to cuddle yet at night. And I miss it dearly.

It’s funny how the baby has been so needy physically, wanting to be held so much of the time – though, she allows for and enjoys increasingly more time on her own as she is getting older – and that I find myself in a similar boat. I like my alone time, and increasingly more so as I have improved physically in my recovery, but I really just want to be held and touched and loved a whole lot right now. I can’t seem to get enough. Though, to be fair, it does seem to be the case that I’m getting way less than I used to get pre-pregnancy. But the baby’s neediness helps somewhat. Snuggling with her as she sleeps is quite wonderful and soothing. But it only satisfies a certain version of touch and love that I seem to need. My husband’s – as silly as this may sound, it is entirely true – manly touch and love are the other half of what I need in this love language.

Dear Lord, thank you for my husband and our baby and our home and our love. Please, make us all well and keep us all safe and together. Praise be unto you. Thank you. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025