Month: June 2025

I don’t like going to bed late. I just don’t.

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I elevated my hips with a sturdy pillow tonight during my physical therapy activities, because I remembered how it had helped specifically on one of the exercises when I’d felt fatigued. I had underestimated how good it could feel to have my hips elevated so. The pillow at the physical therapy office was nothing like this one, so it had mostly just felt lumpy and in the way. But having a sturdy pillow under my hips has felt awesome and helpful these past 20 minutes. And so, for the first time in almost three weeks, I finally managed to elevate my hips for 15 minutes. Had I not added this specific pillow to the bed two days ago, I still wouldn’t have done it tonight. It was just because this pillow was here that I made the effort at all to elevate them, instead of just struggling through the exercises without a pillow.

Anyway, glad that has worked out now!

Thank you for today, Lord. Thank you for my family and for our home. Please, keep us safe and make us well and keep us together. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I noticed distinctly this week while washing myself in the shower that the skin-muscle-etc. combination of body parts on either side of my vagina are significantly higher up, denser, and solid-feeling. It occurred to me that they feel almost normal. It was a wonderful discovery, filled with relief and joy and gratitude. The pelvic floor physical therapy is working! (!!!) Yippee!!

Thank you, Lord, for this improvement. Keep us safe and together and well, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I was able to stay home today, and I got to accomplish a lot. There is still plenty more to do, but real progress was made today, and I can feel the relief. I just feel lighter. Sure, I’m going to bed at 2:30am, which is terrible for my sleep. But I don’t intend to do this again anytime soon. And I am doing so because I was getting so much done before going to bed. I even took breaks throughout the day and night, and I took a good nap at one point this afternoon while the baby slept – that was a really good nap. I took it in my bed, all curled up. It was gloriously satisfying. Haven’t had a nap like that in quite a while, actually… (Usually, I barely dose off before the baby is waking me up already…)

Anyway, super glad and grateful, and, truly, I am proud of myself.

Thank you, God, for the support and love today. Keep blessing our family, please, and help us continue to pursue and fulfill your will through ours. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Thank you to all the folks who out helpful videos on YouTube. Once again, my problem was resolved with the help of a YouTube video. My sewing machine works once again(!!!). Yay!(!!)

Thank you, God. And thank you for today’s blessings. Please, keep us safe and make us well. Guide us kindly and clearly always. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Well, I had an emotional breakdown when I messed up a garment’s stitching situation. Then the machine itself broke down when I had about five stitches left to go on finishing the garment.

Hopefully, I am able to find at least one video to help me fix it tomorrow. I imagine the goal was to get me to go to bed already, and to do sewing during the daytime in the future. Hopefully, with that resolve in place, I will be able to repair the machine with ease and use it again with increased ease.

Lord, guide me, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Now, that felt like the dumbest effort I have ever made.

There must be an easier way…

Thank you, God, for this training and for this home and for these opportunities. Please, make us well and keep us safe and together as a family with love. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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It’s amazing how strong of opinions I have about fabrics. I wanted a white 100% cotton woven fabric. I was given that. And yet, somehow, I hate it. I don’t just dislike it. I hate it. It is ugly in so many ways in my mind (only one way in reality, though). So, got to sort that all tomorrow, I guess!

Lord, thank you for these new endeavors. Guide me to do well with them, both for you and for me and my family. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I offered a balloon to my daughter for the first time this evening. It was the right decision. Half an hour later, we were all utterly tickled and cracking up from watching her and interacting with her with balloons. She cackled and giggled and squeaked and kicked and swung her arms like crazy the whole time. Apparently, she loves balloons. Just a beautiful time to witness and of which to be a part.

Thank you, God. In your name, we pray. Amen.

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Menstruation has begun for real now. And it’s a heavy as it was before I ever got pregnant. Quite frustrating. Especially right now, considering I’m only just barely starting to get almost-reasonable sleep (due to a hungry baby), and now I have to set alarms throughout the night to go to the bathroom every hour and a half or two hours (we shall see how intense it really gets). Also because I still don’t have a properly arranged uterus/bladder situation. Plus, I am managing a baby constantly still. It seems incredibly unfair to have me go through this menstruation already, but to have me go through it without the effective use of tampons, due to the odd arrangement of my bladder and uterus right now, seems ironically cruel, in a way. I haven’t even physically recovered from birth. Why is my body trying to reproduce already again?(??????????!!!)

Ugh.

Perhaps God has a plan that requires this. And it isn’t just to make me feel sick, which I have felt all day today… sick and exhausted. And, even, rather depressive. Menstruation is not going too well this time around. ::big sigh

Dear Lord, please, heal my pains. Keep us safe and make us well and keep us together as a family. Thank you for our home. Heal my body, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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