I’m not even sure what to write about tonight. I’ve been dealing with these demons lately, near-constant attacks on my mental state, mostly focused on my baby’s health and well-being, my husband’s health and well-being, and my relationship with my husband and how I fall short. Scenarios run in my mind during the day and in my dreams at night, all somewhat terrifying. Memories arise consistently to nag at my sense of failure or of not being enough. Some roll on repeat from day to day, others from hour to hour, at times. It has not been easy.
And then my physical body is aching me, my pelvic floor not being where and how it needs to be. That just compounds it all, in a way, adding a physical misery to the mental battle that seems to be waging within me.
God, help me to heal, please, and free me of these demons. In Jesus Christ, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2025
hannah ananas 