Ugh(!!!)

Menstruation has begun for real now. And it’s a heavy as it was before I ever got pregnant. Quite frustrating. Especially right now, considering I’m only just barely starting to get almost-reasonable sleep (due to a hungry baby), and now I have to set alarms throughout the night to go to the bathroom every hour and a half or two hours (we shall see how intense it really gets). Also because I still don’t have a properly arranged uterus/bladder situation. Plus, I am managing a baby constantly still. It seems incredibly unfair to have me go through this menstruation already, but to have me go through it without the effective use of tampons, due to the odd arrangement of my bladder and uterus right now, seems ironically cruel, in a way. I haven’t even physically recovered from birth. Why is my body trying to reproduce already again?(??????????!!!)

Ugh.

Perhaps God has a plan that requires this. And it isn’t just to make me feel sick, which I have felt all day today… sick and exhausted. And, even, rather depressive. Menstruation is not going too well this time around. ::big sigh

Dear Lord, please, heal my pains. Keep us safe and make us well and keep us together as a family. Thank you for our home. Heal my body, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025