Month: October 2025

The lower back and tailbone pains that started during the simple hip circles in physical therapy the other day have persisted. They ebb away 90-95% whenever I use the percussion gun on certain spots all over my bum and lower back, followed by some intense use of the lacrosse ball in the same areas. But I pretty much still wake up either in the morning or in the middle of the night with it all flared up again. It feels like I start from scratch each day.

Today, I woke up around five (after going to bed close to midnight and dealing with multiple feedings for the baby during the night), and it all was aching. I did all the massaging and stretching, but couldn’t fall back asleep until around 7:30, just under an hour before my alarm. I slept hard then, but then struggled big time to wake up at my alarms, any of them. AKA I’m exhausted tonight from a long and hard day.

God, please, heal these back pains, whatever their source – heal it all. Keep my husband safe and make him well, please, and my daughter, too. Keep our home safe and whole. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Sometimes it’s the timing. Sometimes it’s the people. But planning out and organizing things can really suck if you don’t know with which you’re dealing.

But I think I’ve finally figured out my audience, and so can stop stressing, thinking it’s the timing and the situation. Because it isn’t. It’s the people in this case.

Haha

Thank you, God. Please, keep us safe and make us well, especially my husband and our daughter. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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The plan was foiled tonight by people talking with my husband when he was leaving work. So, instead of being home around 9:30 or 10:00, he got home after 11:30pm. So, that sucked, especially because we were waiting for him to get ready for bed and go to bed.

Tomorrow is another day with a very different schedule, so we’ll see how things go there.

God, guide us, please, and keep us safe and well and whole. In your name, we pray. Amen.

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Today, I had another breakdown and I also got very close to being ill, most likely due to low blood sugar. I also stayed in bed until around 11am, possibly almost noon. Depression chemicals are showing up in heavy force, but we are working on clearing them away quickly and efficiently.

I went for a good and fast and long walk this evening, even though I was tired and frustrated and wanted to go rest instead. That helped the chemicals in my brain, but did not help the already-low blood sugar. So, that was a slightly scary walk home when the illness struck and I felt like I might puke and might fall over, all at once. Fortunately, I still had a snack bar in the stroller – need to add more again, now that I know it’s empty – and that was able to help me function well enough to get home safely. But I did have to call my mom to make sure someone knew what was up and could call for help if anything did go poorly for me. She talked with me those ten-ish minutes and helped remind me to put the snack bar under my tongue so that the sugars could start absorbing as quickly as possible to help my blood sugar. And it made a huge difference. (I still felt like crap, but I had energy enough to get home without falling over or semi-collapsing, which had been a real concern.)

Anyway, my husband got home tonight s the time I had planned out as one that made sense for both of our best interests, and that made for a good night together. Another hour earlier would have been even better for us, but I don’t want to push things for him right now. Maybe we can do a couple nights a week for an 8pm arrival home and the others for 9pm. Something like that. We’ll see how it aligns with his work schedule.

For example, tomorrow, he works until 7pm, but has a three-hour break midday. So, he can go fly midday for s couple hours, then just come straight home after work. Likely, he still won’t be home until about nine, anyway, though, since the flight is still an hour back, then tie-down and driving home usually take about an hour. Well, whatever. Working on it.

God, help us to be well and safe and together, please. Keep my husband and my daughter safe and well and whole, please. And our home, too. Help me to care for it and myself and my family well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Life sucks pretty hard when one can’t sleep well. Feeling that badly right now.

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Sometimes, the clutter all just hits at the same time. We have too much at home. We also have too much that doesn’t have an easy place to go, so it’s either pled semi-randomly or our daughter keeps pulling it out and making it look like a storm just blew through all the time. And my phone storage is filled up suddenly, after years of use. So, starting with the phone stuff tonight, because I couldn’t stand the poor function of the phone any longer, mostly. Hopefully, the rest of the storage and clutter at home will begin tomorrow well. I moved the chairs that were in the way today, so I can possibly start working out at home again now. I also moved some ant poison stuff that I have asked my husband several times never to leave out and never to put anywhere other than with the rest of the poison and bug treatment and yard treatment stuff we have, which is in a cabinet in the garage. I was in a hurry, so it didn’t make it inside the cabinet, but the two bags are right in front of the cabinet and are no longer in the way of my stroller every time I go through the garage. Which is awesome.

Thank you, God, for our home. Help us to care for it well and to treat it well always. Keep my husband and our child safe and well, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I let my daughter select her pajamas most nights. She just got a good handful of new ones, since she moved up a size in clothing and we realized we only had a few pajamas in the new size. Tonight was her first chance to choose (since there were actual options now). With stellar selection, she opted for the brand new silly turkeys one. My mom and my husband and I all considered whether to get it or not, because it is clearly tied to Thanksgiving and it isn’t exactly feminine or girly. But we all three were just drawn to it – we simply liked it. Clearly, my daughter felt the same way, which is really cool. Haha

Thank you, God, for my family and our safety and well-being. Please, keep us safe and well. Help us to see clearly each next step, always. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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We are slowly figuring it out. But I think we learned a lot this weekend already that will help us going forward.

Thank you, God, for these opportunities for growth. And thank you, especially, for these chances to be together as a family again. Please, keep us safe and well, especially my husband and our daughter. Thank you for our home. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Tonight, my mom went to a concert of a friend of mine. And I didn’t mind. I got to listen, and even watch a bit, from the reasonable comfort of my own bed. Yes, my daughter was attacking me as she nursed for a good chunk of the time, but it was still much better if an environment than being out at a club in sketchy downtown Houston at 10:3 at night. It was enough to be out for a semi-late dinner in a loud environment with her. She needed to be home, and I needed to be with her, for the sanity of both of us.

Granted, as I typed that, she bit my nipple, so, not the greatest, after all. But still better than a loud and grungy club late at night, knowing my daughter is either crying or passed out (meaning I won’t get much sleep before she’s up to nurse again).

Anyway, thanks, Mom.

God, keep them safe tonight especially, please. Keep my husband and daughter safe and well always, please. Help us to exude love with one another always. Thank you for our family and home. Please keep it all safe and in your hands. In your name, we pray. Amen.

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We now are on the search for a new schedule with new routines to establish as our daily and weekly routine. The plane is here. It is approved for IFR flight. My husband started commuting daily today. (He got up at 3AM for it…) Now, we just need to find a balance for sleep, spending time together as a family and as a couple, and his flying.

God, guide us clearly and kindly in this, please. Keep my husband and our daughter safe and whole and well, please. Grant us awesome sleep each night together. Keep our home safe. In your name, we pray. Amen.

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