Sleep

I don’t have much choice in how much sleep I get, in a sense. My sleep is always disturbed, because the baby nurses throughout the night, and I get out of bed and go sit up with her to do that each time. What I can manage is what time I get us ready for bed. She won’t always go to sleep once we’re ready for bed either, but I do my best to have her in bed as soon as possible after showering.

But I am always tired. She’s been waking every two-ish hours the past month plus. The other night, she slept four hours and three hours, and I felt like I had had a huge amount of sleep after I slept four hours straight (I was still getting ready for bed and waiting for my husband during half of her three-hour stint.). And that’s saying something – four hours feeling like a huge chunk of the night…

Anyway… my husband kind of gets to manage his sleep and schedule. He has work at set times, yes. But when he is flying extra is his off time, he gets to manage himself and his schedule. Yet he still isn’t giving himself enough sleep each night. And not only is that concerning because he has to be going to and from work and working all the time on what I believe is not enough sleep. But also is he usually no help at home and no fun to be around because he gets home utterly exhausted. He can’t even have a normal conversion most nights, he’s too tired and falling asleep wherever he sits down first. And he snaps at me, which is not cool. But it is common for him these days, his being so tired and all. And that sucks.

God, guide us, please. Make your will our will. Make us well and keep us safe, please. Give us good sleep and enough sleep each night, that we be our best selves each day. In your name, we pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025