At the recommendation of my best friend, I expressed some milk today and put it in a bottle for my husband to use tonight, so that he could see about managing the entire process of putting our daughter to bed. Showering, dressing, nursing (via the bottle), and putting her in her crib, wonderfully passed out. My husband seemed game to give it a go, so I just had the first night in months of not having to manage a crying baby while I got myself ready for bed. Not even to stop everything to nurse her. It was wild and absolutely wonderful. The relief it provided feels unreal. I can feel it on my core that I had no idea it could be so easy to get ready for bed anymore. No idea it was possible.
We shall see how things went for my husband and daughter, though. May have been rough for them both. I’ll go check in and nurse her some more if needed (the bottle wasn’t super filled). I’m worried he’ll be borderline furious with frustration, but I’m hoping for the best. This was the first time for this, so I wouldn’t expect it to go flawlessly. But I’m hoping it was a good start to something new we can do sometimes, especially when my husband is able to be home for it, so they can have that intimate and loving time together, and also so that I can not having the screaming frustrations I’ve had most nights lately.
Goff guide us clearly, please. Keep us safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2025
P.S. I’m pretty sure I am hearing my husband heavily breathing through the baby monitor… in other words, he is probably passed out in her room, holding her in the rocking chair… should I even bother waking him? He needs the sleep, after all…
hannah ananas 