I was scheduled to have a playdate with someone tomorrow, and I was really looking forward to it. I even rearranged things to make it work for me tomorrow.
But she sent me a message tonight asking to reschedule. She gave me permission to decline and to keep our date. And I was ready to cry at the prospect of not having this tomorrow. But I gave her free choice. And she chose the other thing for tomorrow, and offered three available days next week to reschedule our playdate. And I was and am super sad about this. But I didn’t want to put my depression on her in a way that would make her miss an important work opportunity. Tomorrow certainly will be beneficial to her chosen career – one which aligns well with being a stay-at-home mom, really. Taking that away from her because I’m dealing with depression may have been helpful for me for tomorrow, but would have left me more upset at having lost her a valuable work opportunity. So, that really sucks that we aren’t meeting tomorrow, but we get to meet next week guilt-free, which is probably better for me in the long-run. I think it’s valuable to share that I’m struggling with others who care about me. But there is also a balance of not taking on guilt over their concern because of it.
So, yeah… instead, tomorrow, I am meeting only with this other mom, who may or may not be much of a friend down the line. But she wanted to get together tomorrow, so we’ll see what happens, and let’s hope for the best.
God, guide me always, please. Keep my husband and my baby and me safe, please, and make us well. Help us to spend quality time together often. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2026
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