Author: hannah.ananas

Somehow, I remembered to register for the Home Depot kids event today. I was supposed to do it first thing at midnight. I was even awake then. It has been on my calendar for yesterday to remind me to do it at midnight last night. But I totally forgot. Then, today, I somehow remembered and I got registered. Turns out, they don’t fill up in an instant like I had anticipated. So, that’s a positive, I suppose. I registered at two different stores early this afternoon. (The first one turned out not to be the right one – it was automatically assigned when I opened the website, and we have at least three stores that are closer than that one, if not more. So, I registered at one I had actually wanted to use.) Now, I just have to remember to go get the actual kit in over a month when the time comes. Fingers crossed, because it’s a cool one! A crop duster!

Anyway, I ended up sucked into the phone again today, doing various seemingly important things. Yes, they mattered. But I hate spending time using my phone when I’m hands-on with my child. And my child has been very needy the past week-ish, and there’s a lot of hands-on time right now. So, it was doubly frustrating to have to deal with any extra stuff on the phone today because of that (both the hassle of it and the decrease in attention it gives my child when we’re together).

God, help me to choose less time spent on my phone each day. I have felt the guidance at nighttime – thank you. Please, continue it in the daytime, too. Please, keep our family safe and well and whole and together, especially my husband and our baby. Guide us kindly and clearly forward. Show us exactly what to do these next 24 and 72 hours for our financial future. Help us to solidify the next step in the process for us to reach financial stability and reliability, and a beautiful and fulfilling career for us both. In your name, we pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025

Sometimes, people’s… behavior, we’ll say, just pisses me off. I suppose it is all just part of the trials and tribulations involved in growing into the people God calls us to be. We can be grateful for the trials, for our growth through them allows us to be the people we want to be and to lead the lives we want to lead.

It can still be extremely difficult in the moment of the bad behavior, nonetheless.

God, help us clearly and kindly please. Guide us lovingly forward through these trials, and encourage us effectively, please. Keep us safe and well and together, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025

You know, I never anticipated that I would be messaging people to make connections so that I could buy an airplane. What’s more, I don’t even really have money like that – it’s all loans and pulling retirement savings. But it is all so that, in the future, we can afford to buy our own airplane if we wish. Investments can be quite weird at times. Haha

God, please, continue to guide us clearly and kindly. Help us to lead the lives we long to lead. Be with us always. Please, keep us safe and well and together and with you. Thank you for everything. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025

I asked for clear guidance for our career and financial path, and for this week especially. I had anticipated that to mean for my husband’s career path only. However, God has made it abundantly clear on how I need to pursue properly my own path.

I let my aunt know tonight that tomorrow is my last day helping to care for my grandmother. I still will be sure to see her and will be sure she gets to see my daughter, of course. But I will not be working to help care for her anymore. I love her, and I need to be responsible for my actual job, which is being a mother, a homemaker, and a wife. My husband and I chose this career together for me to do, and everything within me felt right in choosing so. That I did this extra work to help us out financially did make sense for a short while. But that short while has ended, and God made it clear the past few days especially that it is time to return fully to my “real job”, as it were.

And I have a whole load of stuff that has gotten pushed aside these past few weeks I’ve helped care for my grandmother. So, it won’t be a cakewalk to dive back into it all full-time. But, after I’ve recovered the bit more that I need after tomorrow, I’m actually quite looking forward to all that I will be getting to do each day. I’m excited about the satisfaction that will come with the hard work’s completion, as well as the relief and joy of having a home we enjoy being inside, of having a home that functions and is beautiful. It will take a while for that all to land in place, but I’m excited to get started on it all again. And, I’m excited to start building a routine and an educational adventure of a schedule with my daughter. I will be able to turn my focus to her for more than just a bit more often than the times she cries – such a beautiful change from the present situation, which has left us both crying far too often.

Thank you for my husband. Thank you for our home. Thank you for our new family (aka our daughter). And thank you for this clear guidance. Please, continue to give it. Please, keep us safe, make us well and whole, and keep us together and in your hands. In your name, Lord Jesus Christ, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025

Or don’t. I’ve got a hang nail and it is hurting a lot. I haven’t had one like this in a long time. I had to break back out the arnica gel for it, which I have used, maybe, once in the past year. I used to have to use it all the time for hang nails that hurt. Then, they sort of just stopped happening..: not sure why, really. Food for thought now, though(!). Hmm…

Post-a-day 2025

P.S. My baby is officially six months old, as of 28 minutes ago. Hallelujah!

Post-a-day 2025

“Would it be worth starting with the little plane, and then selling it as you upgrade to a bigger one? So you can start getting extra hours asap”

The things I consider in the middle of the night… And that’s only a message I sent in the middle of the night. Let’s not forget the several I didn’t send because it was not acceptable to be sending random thoughts to folks so late at night.

My brain just does such varied yet good quality thinking late at night right now.

Imagine what it could do in the mornings on a full night’s sleep several days in a row.

Post-a-day 2025

I have not sorted out my daily life with current circumstances yet. The breakdown this week definitely affected my direction with things, but we will have to see how tomorrow goes with my aunt coming to town to see my grandma before we gather further how this next week will unfold for my schedule. My husband still hasn’t given me an answer about how much I need to be going still this week, which is its own frustration. However, I asked him to determined this week which path we are pursuing for his hours… buying a plane, finding a different job, doing a combo job, etc. The prospect of that path being determined within the next week gives me significantly less strain and much less intense pressure. And that’s great(!).

Dear Lord, please, guide us clearly and safely forward for Patrick to get the hours he needs to continue in this career and to provide financially for our family. If it is an airplane that we need to purchase, please, show it to us tomorrow and make it obvious to us both that this is our next move. If it is a job, please, have someone call Patrick tomorrow about it and ask him clearly to consider the appointment. If it is something else, please make that clear. Whatever it is, our next step, please, fill our minds with it for the next 48 hours, and have it resolved and in place within another 42 hours after that. Thank you for accepting our wishes and requests. I am knocking and I am asking for this clear and immediate guidance and progress. Thank you for this life and this love and this home. Please, keep us safe and well and together, especially my husband and our baby. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025

I finished them and I got a good photo of them. Woohoo. And they look great. And they have pockets… because a one-year-old needs pockets… haha

I hope they like them…

God, thank you for this gift of sewing. Keep us safe and well and together and in our home well, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

Post-a-day 2025

I asked for friends today, online. Mostly, I just got people making recommendations of ways to find friends. So, not so helpful. I had one friend reach out to check in. That was helpful in the sense of feeling loved, but unhelpful on the sense that it was very difficult to respond and use my phone at all while I had a rather fussy/needy baby today (adding to the desire for friends and company in real life). It also made me miss that particular friend more than usual. She’s really quite cool as a person. I’ve missed her for years, and still do.

Anyway… I asked for help. That’s already a good and powerful step for me.

Thank you for the courage, God. Keep us safe and well, please, and keep our home safe and well, too, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

P.S. I made another pair of shorts today. They look great. I hope they fit the kid appropriately. I hope the parents like them. I worked hard on them and feel like I did a much better job than the first pair I made. So, good progress there(!). Yay(!). 🙂

Post-a-day 2025