Author: hannah.ananas

I accomplished more things today, and it gives great satisfaction. Woohoo!

Thank you, God, for the support. Make me and the baby and my husband well, please, and keep us safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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What is the point of going to the actual bathroom to empty my massively full bladder, if, when I get there, the baby is straight up pressing on the line, and preventing that same massively full bladder from emptying? Hmm????????????

I had to move like crazy to get the baby to move off the spot that was clearly kinking the hose or whatever. It was weird. I had to pee so terribly, but I couldn’t get out more than tiny bits at a time at first. And it felt like a two by four was stuck under my belly, preventing me from leaning forward at all while attempting to pee… bizarre stuff, pregnancy.

Haha

P.S. The dentist really helped a lot today. There is still s tiny little piece that is not cool. However, all the other stuff seems like it may have been resolved in the visit today. I will see in the morning how my retainers do – I almost always say “aligners”, but they are technically retainers, because the teeth have already been aligned and just need to be retained, maintained in their corrected placements. But they already went on easier tonight than they have been doing. And flossing was a whole new world tonight. I almost cried with relief (instead of immense stress) while flossing tonight. Much, much better. Thank you, dentist.

Thank you, God, for the dental easing today. Thank you for the love and support of the day, as well as for my accomplishments and my energy to do those. Help make me and the baby and my husband well, please, and keep us all three safe. Help my family always to love one another truly. Be with us, guiding us all always, please. Heal our country. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Going to the dentist tomorrow morning to have her fix these filings. They have been driving me nuts. It also is frustrating that the office never got back to me after I left a message, requesting an appointment for the problems I was already having with the new fillings. I just really hope they resolve the issues without creating any new ones tomorrow. I have such trouble with fillings, it always seems. I avoid them very well, but genetics just crush me sometimes, as in this case.

Anyway, here to hoping!

God, please, help my dentist visit tomorrow to clear up all concerns and problems I’m currently having with my teeth. Make me and the baby and my husband well, and keep us all safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Every week, the website that I used for my registry sends me an e-mail that talks about how far along I am that week. It gives info on various aspects of that week of pregnancy and common experiences and symptoms and how to deal with them all. And it also starts with a sentence saying how big the baby is and a photo of some seemingly random item that is the same size. And I feel like it might be targeted directly to me – perhaps I gave my date of birth at some point – but it could just be super targeted to millennials period. Every item has been something significant from my childhood. They’ve been awesome. And, of course, I’ve enjoyed using the actual items, which I own – yes, I own most of them – to take a photo each week. It has been a blast.

This week’s? See here:

So, naturally, I made sure we pulled out the matching VHS and got the relevant photo to mark the occasion/timing and development.

So, though it was stressful getting my husband to get the specific photo I wanted – as it has been each time – I was and am quite delighted at the resulting photos.

So, yay for successful dorky fun!

Thank you, God, for this edge of joy on what has been a difficult journey thus far for us. Thank you for my husband. Make me and the baby and my husband well, please, and keep us all safe. Help keep my whole family safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Today was a long and full day. But it was a good day, a wholesome day. I had to rest more than I wanted. But I also managed to stay the whole time and do all the things I had hoped to do in my volunteering for today. I was helpful and I accepted my limitations and just had to go sit outside for a bit and almost pass out in a nap. And I had to let people help take care of me… get me food, napkins… let me eat early… let me just sit and do nothing for a little while. But I also got to stand up for myself and tell three grown men that I was completely okay and safe helping pull something across the way, when they came running at me in a panic that I was doing any kind of physical labor. To be fair, it was an incredibly light wooden frame, and it didn’t even have the heavy thing sitting on top of it, so it truly wasn’t heavy. I had picked that one on purpose, because I knew I could move it without strain. Most of the others are much heavier. But I also had moved one of the others earlier, too, so I knew for sure that I could do this one. But they hadn’t seen me move the either earlier. Funnily enough, they had even kind of prohibited me from touching the bales that sit on top of these stands. So, that was a big part of why I had beelined first the one that had no bale on it – I knew I wouldn’t be going against their request this way, but still could fulfill the duty for which I had signed up.

Anyway, it all worked out pretty well today. And I even got to eat a reasonable amount of dinner shortly before heading home. That was good.

Down side for today was that I never pooped. Not cool for me. But it didn’t feel necessarily like that all day, so a small win on that front. Something sucky, but an improved version of it. Hopefully, tomorrow morning goes really well and easily on that front.

God, that you for today. Thank you for the love. Thank you for the courage and the energy. Help me and the baby to be well and safe, please, and keep my husband safe. Help the photos to go well tomorrow, please. And keep my parents safe, too, please. Help me to make these quilts. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Rodeo has truly become a great place in my life. Being at an event today, I was blown away with how much everyone cared about me and about my baby. There was no concern about whether I was going to do an amazing job, or even be there the whole time. Their first priority was for me to be okay, and everything else was second. They would find coverage, they would figure it out, and I wouldn’t lose credit if I needed to step away or go home.

As the love was pouring in, I just kept thinking and experiencing, This is the right place to be.

Thank you, God. Amen.

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Just waiting on one final bit of approval from a lawyer to say I can sign this document, and I can send it back and never have to deal with these people again. The last two days have been really hard on me simply because of having to deal with them and their nonsense and ineptitude. Golly… what a mess! And it’s almost finished!

God, guide me the final bit for this, and help me always to follow you in life. Make me and the baby safe and well, please, and keep husband safe. Help us to sleep well at night. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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P.S. Well, if they pay me properly per the agreement, including my paycheck for time worked and the extra stipend they never actually paid me, though they should have done so already, I won’t have to deal with them again. So, we shall see! Fingers crossed and prayer said!

Oh, God, guide us all, please, that we follow your path of wisdom and love. Please. Amen.

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Today, a neighbor mentioned doing one thing at a time, and that that was what I am doing at home as I sort through everything and prepare for living with a baby.

I thought about it and then replied something like, ‘More like fifty things at once,’ and I meant it. I truly have a boatload of things going on at once in the house. Many things are ‘in process’ at present. I don’t often have one thing being accomplished from start to finish in one go. It takes starting several things just to be able to finish the first. Sure, sometimes, I just get distracted and start doing something other than what I had intended. But I mostly operate well by doing one step at a time across several things, making progress across the board. I stagger them, of course, so I am still accomplishing the completion of one or another every few steps of the way. I tend to treat them as a lot. Once the lot is completed, I can put together and start a new lot. But everything in one lot is worked on at the same time, to different degrees.

So, yeah, fifty things at once, it often feels and seems. But then they all kind of get done in quick succession, once the first one is finished. Today’s bits were very much like that. Haha But I accomplished loads, and I feel good about it.

Tomorrow will be another set of tasks all tied together across several bigger tasks. I am excited for it(!).

God, guide us always, please. Make me and the baby well and safe, please, and keep my husband safe and well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I was actually happy this morning. Truly so. I even said, “Good morning,” to someone. And I meant it. I haven’t said that phrase in months, because I haven’t been able to mean it. It was bizarre, feeling suddenly myself again. I hadn’t fully realized how missing I had gone.

I am grateful to be back.

Thank you, God, for having this morning go well and for giving me the words and the ease to do everything well and efficiently. Thank you for the business appropriateness of the big boss and her graciousness and kind offer. And thank you for showing me that I was, indeed, doing the best thing. Thank you for the courage and confidence. Thank you for helping me to bring myself back to life. Thank you for your love and guidance and blessings. Make me and the baby well and safe, please, and keep my husband safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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