Author: hannah.ananas

Okay, people. Can we, please, stop scamming one another? We’re all out here working to find a way in life. We don’t need scams. And that ill-gotten money will condemn you at some point in life, and likely after it, too. So, let’s just not. We need to be working together, supporting one another, lifting each other up. Scams are the opposite of that. As Mamma in “Waterboy” would have said, “Scams are da debble!” But for real – they are his work.

Ugh(!).

God, help us to be kind and good, please. Free us of the works of the devil. Keep us safe and make us well. Help us always to follow your path and will in our lives. And keep my husband safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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They’re moving all around and are getting more uncomfortable each day, yes. But I also am finding all the more an importance in trusting them. On all levels.

God, help me to see clearly your path and to follow it easily. Make me and the baby well and whole, please. Keep my husband safe. Help us to find ease in trusting you fully, please. And help me to sleep well, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Today was loads better than the last couple Sundays. Cheers to birthday lunches that leave great leftovers to have for dinner (for days).

Thank you, God, for the family and love and food today. Help my husband to do well for his test tomorrow. Help us both sleep well tonight and each night. Make me and the baby well, please. Keep us safe. Keep my husband safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Sometimes, it isn’t about what we do together, but about that we be together. Today, I spent time with a former tutoring student and her parents. We live near one another and get together regularly. Today, however, I was still so worn down exhausted, somewhat nauseous, and physically struggling with the new aches of pregnancy’s moving stuff around in my front region, that I couldn’t do much of anything. I managed to get through a short grocer trip, and then had to have a seat for a while while she made smoothies, and then lie down to rest while she baked. After she got me up 30 or so minutes later – I hadn’t slept, but lying down with my eyes closed had still be very helpful – I managed barely to get upstairs to see her recent art and sewing projects. By the time I got back down, I had to pack up and go home. I was going down for the count.

So, I didn’t do much. But it was still a really nice day. Just hanging in the same place together and intentionally spending time together was what made it all so worth it. And I am grateful that it worked out after all. Hopefully, it was just the kind of alone time my husband was seeking, while I got to have the opposite, which I was seeking. Good days all around, I hope.

And happy birthday to my love and husband.

Thank you, God, for my husband. Thank you for the friends today and the quality time together. Help me and the baby to sleep well and to be well. Keep us safe. Keep my husband safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Lots more today in the realm of body aches. I sneezed while sitting on a stool in class today, and it hurt. My whole insides in the front felt like they had been, almost, punched. An actual youch.

Fortunately, the kids were great about it. I said it had hurt, and they saw I was in pain. When I asked for someone to bring me two tissues (because my nose was running almost immediately from the sneeze), there was no hesitation. And, I noticed, as I handled blowing my nose and gathering myself, slowly recovering from the blow – ha! – (to my insides, not the nose and tissue) the girls sat there in almost complete silence. Perhaps they were worried. I imagine I would have been so in their shoes. Like I said, it was obvious that I was in pain. And the bizarreness of a sneeze’s having caused it just made it all the more unnerving. But, as I said, they handled it well as a class. They waited patiently and quietly for me to heal, and I did.

But it hurt. And I’ve had their aches on the insides today, too. The skin wasn’t hurting so much today – it had felt like it was actively stretching for about a day and half – but the insides were.

Man… this stuff is tough.

God, thank you for this opportunity. Keep me and the baby safe. Make us both well, please. Help us to get along well and beautifully with one another and with my husband. Keep my husband safe, please. Grant him a joyful and satisfying and safe birthday tomorrow, please. Thank you for him. I am so grateful… thank you. Help us to see clearly and to follow easily your path for us. Also, can you share our baby’s name with us yet? In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I’m still kind of nauseous most of the time, and sometimes very nauseous. However, it has definitely lessen even further that a couple weeks ago. I am still struggling big time with food and eating and smells, but that, too, had gotten easier than it was only a couple weeks ago. However, I seem to have hit the phase in the past three days where I get the physical discomforts. The girls at school are great about it all and are very forgiving of all my noises and faces and my having to stop and recover here and there.

However, today had a special bit to it.

I had a burp that turned into a bit of puke in my mouth today during class. I apologized to the girls. They all smiled and encouraged me that, “It’s okay!” And several added, “It’s only natural!” One even contributed, “That happened to me one time at soccer. Then I had to swallow it.”

So, yeah. They were great. And it made all the difference being so totally accepted exactly as I am. And even encouraged in it.

Thank you, God, for the blessing of these girls. Help us always to do your will. Make me and the baby well, please, and keep us safe. Keep my husband safe, too, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Being super takes courage. It just does. And being courageous means that, in the face of fear, we don’t let the fear stop us. We are afraid, and we act anyway. We do what needs to be done, despite being afraid to do it.

So, it’s okay to be scared. It’s basically the first step to becoming super.

Help us to be well and to follow you fully, please, God. Make me and the baby well, please. Keep my husband safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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My husband was very annoyed. However, he succeeded in installing the blackout shade I bought on super discount at IKEA today. And I have a feeling it might make a massive difference in my sleep, effective immediately. I am quite excited to see how tonight goes. We have three others for the other windows in our bedroom. However, Jose have to be cut to fit, which is even more hassle, so we didn’t mess with them tonight. Just the most important one for tonight, the brightest window.

God, keep my husband safe, please. Help us to sleep well tonight. Make me and the baby well. Help my grandma to be well, too, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Working to sort it all out. God is helping. Not sorted fully yet, though. Might just go ahead and order the mattress, since the discount that started today has a “while supplies last” caveat that makes me nervous. Then we can take any extra time needed for the bed frame. There was no hurry specifically before today, as it was just a it getting better sleep, mostly for me. But the sudden almost 30% discount on the mattress makes a huge difference. So, time pressure now on that purchase.

Maybe we will sleep on the floor at first. Though I hope not.

God, help us to see clearly, please, and grant us ease on this path. Keep my husband safe. Make me and the baby well and whole, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Sometimes, I feel like I wish I weren’t so strong. God won’t give us anything we can’t handle, right? If I weren’t so strong, I’d get easier stuff. But I guess it all would feel just as hard as it does now, because it is all relative to what we can handle.

So, yes, it sucks sometimes being so strong. But it would suck being weaker, too.

So, I’d rather be strong and taking the hard stuff than weak and taking the weak stuff.

But I always will acknowledge that it is still tough. ‘My yoke is easy and my burden is light.’ But they’re still a yoke and a burden – just ones we can handle as we are. Life doesn’t get easier. We just get better stuff the hard stuff.

And yes, depression makes all that sound like lame nonsense that doesn’t help anything at all. But I still trust God. More than ever now, when I feel like I can’t do it. Because I know that I can’t do it. He has to do it through me and with me. I am in His hands and I am safe. I trust Him to use me wisely and with love, intention, and integrity.

Thank you, God, for loving me and for making me. Make me and this baby well, please. Make us safe. Keep my husband safe. And help us all to be our best selves in this life, now and always. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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