Sleep, please

We are both so exhausted from everything the past week and a half, we probably could sleep the whole weekend, if it were an option. Naturally, we had rodeo meetings today and we have the opera tomorrow. I passed out as soon as we got home, fumbled up a couple hours later for some dinner and the end of a movie we’d started weeks ago, and am going to bed for real now, still exhausted. My husband has gone to the gym – shocker – to get back to his regular routine, now that things have settled (and also to work off all the amazing food we’ve had around us the past week and a half that wasn’t going to last and so had to be eaten :P).

God, grant us useful and much-needed rest tonight and tomorrow, please. Help us to adjust to this life together well, always keeping you and love at our center. Help us to see clearly our next step in pursuing and fulfilling your will with our lives. Please, keep us safe and well. In your name, I pray. Amen. And goodnight. Thank you. Amen.

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Day two

Today was a good day. I am extremely grateful for my husband.

Thank you, God, for this man and for our relationship. Please, help him to sleep well and to learn well. Help him to pursue effectively this dream he is currently pursuing for work. Ease his worries, sharpen his mind for the tasks at hand, and, please, keep him always safe. Help me to find my path with work, too, please. Make my next step always clear. Grant us both ease in our trust in you. In your name, we pray. Amen.

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Day one

I am married. I am a wife. I have a husband. We have a home. And it was like the dog even new today that something was different – she greeted him still first, but then lovingly greeted me, too, with intensity she never had had for me.

Also, it keeps raining, and the poor chickens were already surrounded by a river yesterday from the rain… :/

God, keep us all safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Wedding day. Thank you, God, for the beauties and love of today. Help us to grow well together as husband in wife, always keeping you at the center of our life, and loving, honoring, and cherishing one another as we support one another to be our best selves. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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One-eyed, one-horned…

My dress has one arm now. That’s one more than it had two days ago. Not much time between now and the wedding… tomorrow… hoping I’ll have two sleeves to wear by then, and no safety pins…

God, help us to succeed in achieving our goals and dreams for our wedding and its celebration, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Here we go…

I started menstruating today. Hopefully, that will put me at the point of being far enough along that it isn’t a huge stress and hassle for the wedding and reception, but not so far that we’ll be immediately expecting a child…

Hopefully, anyway…

God, grant us these wishes we have for making our wedding and its celebration a beautiful success and the event we long for it to be and have worked to have it be. Help us to serve you with our lives and to pursue and fulfill your will, always honoring you through our love and marriage. And, please, keep me and my man, my fiancé safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

P.S. Today would have been my great-great uncle’s birthday. He was born on 21 January in 1887, and he eventually became a somewhat famous painter, which was and is cool in and of itself. But his paintings are the really cool part. He made a plethora of just awesome work. Just beautiful stuff. And I am grateful that I was allowed to have my own collection of them as part of my grandparents’ wills many years ago. I get to have them on the walls of my home that will house this be yeti full family we are building together, being established officially this Tuesday. ❤

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Rehearsals

Our wedding rehearsal is tomorrow. Musicians – meaning a friend and a cousin of mine – were rehearsing at the house here today. Another friend came early for the hen party, and she helped my man, my fiancé, rehearse – meaning review – waltz, since we picked a song yesterday to use for our first dance as a married couple, and it is a waltz. (And he takes coaching and correction better from not-me. And she taught ballroom and also did country waltz a bit (I do country waltz.), so was a qualified teacher-slash-reviewer.) And I rehearsed dancing in my dress shoes with him for our first dance. And another friend came early, just because of driving distances for going home then back to here for the party, and she helped touch up our wall paint that has looked hideous where the thermostat was moved – before I ever first came here – and an ugly green paint and another whitish paint were just sitting in a patch right next to the thermostat (since it was a different size, smaller than the previous one). And my mom also came and did another fitting for my dress. I’m a bit nervous about that one, still…

So.. yeah… more tomorrow.

God, help us to pursue and fulfill your will. Guide us to be our best selves. Help us to have a spectacular wedding and wedding celebration, please, and give us clear and beautiful skies all day and night Tuesday, please. Morning light showers are absolutely acceptable, of course, and would be beautiful. Please, help this day to go well with our hopes and dreams for it. Thank you for this life and this opportunity. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Thermometer

I’ve been working on tracking my cycle exactly, so as to know what specifically it does. I’ve had a good understanding of the phases for most of my life. However, I’ve never paid super close attention to them, as it’s never really been relevant for me. It’ll be relevant starting Tuesday, though, so I’ve been working on tracking it all the past month again. (I say “again” because I had practiced it for a couple months or so last year to see how it all looked, and determined I didn’t want to hassle with it until a month before the wedding, when it would be especially relevant.)

However, it has sucked. I just don’t have a consistent schedule right now, so I wake up at all different times, depending on the day, and I also go to bed at all different times, depending on the day. The Christmas and New-Year break was an absolute mess of inconsistency. And this tracking stuff needs consistency.

I’ve been much more consistent the past week, since school started. But it still hasn’t been great. I have to get at least four hours of unbroken sleep, and take my temperature at roughly the same time every day. I have trouble doing anything at the same time every day right now in life. Before I met my man, I was like clockwork on just about everything. Since he showed up, however, I adapted to his slightly chaotic schedule in an effort to spend more time with him.

And, separate from the struggle of doing all this tracking, the schedule has really been wearing me out. I love my man. But I am not well if I do not sleep well. No one is. And I somehow can’t sleep well beyond about six in the morning, and that’s at the latest. My best nights of sleep are when I go to sleep by nine o’clock, and wake up naturally around five. Eight to nine hours of sleep that ends by 5:30am seems to be the ideal for my sleep effectiveness.

Anyway… so, I’m working on getting myself back to that consistency. Because this has been really sucky not being able to track this stuff efficiently, only adding to the stress I already have of not sleeping enough or well in my daily life.

Dear God, help us to create healthy consistency in our sleep schedules, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

P.S. God, can we have perfect weather on Tuesday, please, so as to do the things we really want to do for our wedding reception? In your name, I pray, please. Amen.

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