Today was much better. I was able to talk about things that have happened that are sad or upsetting without actually getting upset. I communicated rather clearly and effectively. I felt physically better than I did Monday and, even, Tuesday. I met some new people and connected with them.
One in particular has already been really sweet and helpful, giving me some useful tips for the baby registry, and also just getting the struggle of a sick-filled pregnancy (which most women don’t seem to get, it turns out). Her first was no big deal, I think it was, but her second just crushed her emotionally and physically with all the nausea she experienced. So she actually got it. And it felt so relieving to be gotten in this new environment.
We got some free time on our own today, which helped socially big time.
Also, I felt much better as a whole at school, because I wore a fitted dress today. I let people see that I am pregnant, because there is no denying it when I wear something fitted. And I had been correct in believing that most people didn’t know I was pregnant. Several specifically commented on it or started asking questions about it today, though they had had clear chances Monday and Tuesday already. They just hadn’t realized before today. It was very validating, too, to see that, when I had felt like people just thought I was angry and miserable and potentially in need of help, I was right. They did. They started treating me very differently today. Not sure that’s good that there was a difference at all, but still grateful that they seem accepting of my struggle now that they know it is a pregnancy struggle.
Anyway… still tough, but improving.
Thank you, God, for another safe day and for the love. Make the baby and me well and safe, please. Keep my husband safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
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