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Whenever my husband is gone, I still feel the need to keep the baby in the bedroom with me and lock the bedroom door. It isn’t that we’re in a neighborhood that isn’t safe. It’s just that I feel a whole lot better having more locks and doors between me and anyone who may make some bad decisions during the night.

God, please, keep us safe. Keep my husband and baby and me safe and well, and help us to follow your will happily and freely. Thank you for our family and for our home. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I spent the whole day today tidying and cleaning, and then getting out and setting up Christmas decorations. It made me very sad to see how messy things still were, and how much that dampened the effect of the Christmas decorations. But I did the best I could with the time and energy and circumstances available to me. If I weren’t also being a full-time Mom, I could have slept well the ten months beforehand, and I could have had both the energy and the ability to tidy up all the rest of the stuff, too. But I was and am exhausted, and I had a baby getting into everything all day long and then she required me to carry her around for the majority of the evening and into the night, as I kept working. So, only so much got done.

I hope it brightens my days as I had hoped it would, and I hope my husband enjoys it. Especially despite the mess of everything else… I’m really concerned about all of that. It really messes with the effect of the Christmas décor. ::big sigh

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Life is a lot harder when tired. But it seems infinitely more important to focus on being kind when one is tired if others are also tired. Because a well-slept person can handle some rudeness from a clearly-tired person. But an exhausted one just can’t handle even the slightest meanness or rudeness, even if he can see that the one expressing it is also exhausted. Everything just hurts so much more easily and so much more. And, sometimes, we just hurt each other back and forth in immediate succession because we are both exhausted and can’t regulate at all anymore.

Being kind in the face of frustration while tired is very difficult to do. But God is giving me the chance to practice it again and again(!)… ::sigh

Thank you, God. Please, keep us safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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It is really weird how things develop in life sometimes. Some things can get better while there grow worse, and then things can come out of left field and jar one’s whole current mental state. I have all of that tonight. And my toenails keep catching on the sheets, even though I’ve been cutting and filing the past several days to sort out the torn nails from a month or so ago…

It’s just wild sometimes.

God, keep us safe and make us well, please. Show us your will clearly and make it ours. Be kind and gentle, please, but clear. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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My daughter loves to destroy toilet paper. And she sometimes loves to eat it, too. But she mostly just loves to unroll it and flail it around and tear it into strips to flail and then crumple up and leave everywhere after briefly sucking on them.

So, basically, my daughter is like a cat with toilet paper. Or a dog. But pet, nonetheless. She is an animal.

God, thank you for my daughter and for my husband. Please, keep them and me safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I spend far too much time on my phone right now. And it would be too much even if I weren’t dealing with some depression. But I am very lonely right now. As it is, the phone use is making the depression all the worse.

So, here’s to less phone time tomorrow.

God, guide me, please, and help me to become fully healthy. Grant me the sleep to give my days true energy and effective will. Please, keep my husband and my baby and me safe, and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Today has been the feast of the Immaculate Conception of Mary, that is, the conception of Mary by her parents without original sin. Basically, it is a celebration of Mary day.

Ironically, the reading for today is actually about Mary’s fiat, which makes it easily confusing to determine if the day is about when Mary was conceived or when she conceived Jesus. But that scene is still suiting, because the Angel Gabriel greets her as being full of grace already, which came from her conception. (Read a good and quick explanation here.)

Anyway, I love Mary and I am grateful for her, as well as for her intercessions.

Thank you, Mary. Thank you, God. Make us well and keep us safe, please. And whole and together. In Jesus’s name, I pray. Amen.

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We attended a wedding celebration tonight. The wedding was a 40-person event on their ranch about a month ago. But tonight was the ‘everyone I love and have met and liked’ party. And it was very high-end. The coolest part to me was not just that it was half indoors and half on a wrap-around humongous balcony 20 stories up on the bayou with a perfect view of downtown, but that one of the many bars and food stations etc. was a cigar station where the guy was actively making cigars throughout the event. It was very neat and a very new idea to me. Super cool.

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Well, my husband got three of the five awards for his flight club tonight. They were also the only three for which he was qualified in the first place (because he doesn’t teach for them or take lessons from them, which were the other two awards). The owners were cracking up as they presented him with everything, and he was up there, smiling and holding the baby, just looking gorgeous and adorable.

It was great.

Thank you, God. Please, continue to keep him and us safe and well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Today was a bit of a weird day. I ended up somewhere I hadn’t really anticipated, and ended up enjoying myself much more than anticipated. However, I also discovered how very much I don’t want their world to be my world. It was surprising, in a way, yet also not surprising. I value money, and I value what it can offer in a life. Perhaps, at a certain point, people forget to value money at all, when they have so much of it. And I don’t want to hit that point in my life. I always want to remember the value of money and to be grateful for the money that I have. I never want to forget that it does come from hard work, be it from my own or from someone else’s. It is not something to through around and gamble on a high level. Period.

So, a positive and a negative and a positive for today. Haha

Thank you, God. Please, help us to sleep well tonight and each night. Keep my husband and my baby and me safe and make us well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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