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Today was rather rough. It actually started rather reasonably. I went back to sleep and slept for real twice before getting up close to noon. My husband made me a breakfast sandwich that I was able to eat. Things felt good for a while.

And then, at one point, they suddenly were not okay at all. I struggled the rest of the evening and night. Still struggling now and feeling terrible.

God, help me, please. Heal me of the nausea, and keep our baby safe and well. Keep us all safe, please. Especially, keep my husband safe, please. Help us to sleep well at night. Help me to forget all the scary scenes from the movie tonight. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I start to feel better, and so can eat actual food. But I can’t actually prepare the actual food. So, I have to wait for my husband to be able to do it, or find someone to bring me food that I can’t identify as something I could eat until I smell it… and that usually gets me all the more sick, having to wait for the food. And, even if my husband does do it, he has to do not all outside, because I can’t stand the smell of foods for more than a few seconds. Not even the ones I manage to eat.

So, it seems things still suck, just in a slightly different way now.

A muscle deep in my left buttocks is also very much hurting me right now. I’m sure it has to do with how I’m having to position myself to fall asleep, and I can’t really change any of that. But a good hand to help rub it would would be quite helpful. Unfortunately, my husband is already busy in the first place with work and school, and in the second place with helping me eat.

Anyway, I’m exhausted and still miserable, and my lips are now really dry and hurting. And, somehow, even when the maids come, my bathroom floor and countertop don’t seem actually to get clean. I got photos this time, though, so, hopefully, that will help me communicate the point tomorrow with the lady in charge of them all.

God, help us to find comfort and some ease, please. Heal me of this nausea and bloating. Make the baby grow and love and live well, please. Keep us all safe, please, especially my husband. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I am still rather ill. I am much improved from where I was a couple weeks ago. However, it was so bad then that “better” is an ironically relative word. I am still sick.

That being said, my brother and sister-in-law insisted on staying elsewhere tonight. They still have no power, but didn’t want to become a nuisance. So, they’re staying at his dad’s house, which, I believe, had power restored either last night or this morning. Since they were going to be gone, I said it was okay when the maids asked about coming tomorrow.

However, there is a lot of preparation required at the moment for the maids to come. And I really can’t do most of it. And my husband is just so exhausted, he fell asleep in a chair as soon as he finished eating, then moved to the sofa after I woke him a couple hours later, and he became horizontal and passed right back out.

The maids never gave a time, though they said they would do so, nor fully confirmed that they are actually coming tomorrow. So, I’m going to bed with a rather unprepared house, not knowing if maids are coming tomorrow or not, let alone what time, if they are coming. Given that I don’t really fall asleep until all my food has digested down from the stomach, so I don’t really get up until around ten most mornings right now, tomorrow morning could be very interesting… and stressful.

Whatever the case, I’m going to let it be. If it is wild, I’ll just be straight with her about our situation and hope they all can roll with it.

God, guide us, please. Heal me of this nausea. Make our baby and me and my husband well and safe, please. Keep us safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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We had a lot of people at our house today. Some brought us food. Most were here because they had no electricity at their homes, and they wanted to save their food. It was a very busy day, tiring. But it was still good.

Nonetheless, I look forward to a more restful day tomorrow. I hope it is low clouds in the morning, so my husband has to cancel his flight and can get some much-needed sleep. Then he can catch up on everything after a good rest.

God, help us all to sleep well tonight, please. Heal me of the nausea. Make the baby grow well, please. Keep us both safe. Keep my husband safe. Thank you for the electricity that keeps us cool. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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The storm was standard. Nerves were on high alert and it was a bit scary at times, but all seemed to settle rather well for such a big storm. I am grateful.

I am especially grateful that we have electricity. By God’s grace, it is so, and I am incredibly grateful.

My brother and sister-in-law are staying with us tonight.

God, thank you for this electricity. Please, maintain it for us, so that I can continue to heal and find ease in my illness. Heal me of this nausea and bloating, and help our baby to grow strong and to grow beautifully. Keep my husband safe, please, and my mom and grandma, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Hurricane prep today and tonight.

God, keep us safe, please. Keep our home safe and cool, please. Help me to be well while growing this baby. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Yesterday, a friend brought me helpful items for my pregnancy. She also told me that she and one of her best friends, also a friend of mine, put together a list for first-time parents that she would send me. And she said she would mark on it the things that she has already that she will be giving me. What’s more, when I showed her our guest room that had been reconfigured to become a baby room, and I mentioned that the bed in it, of course, would be relaxed at some point by a crib, she said that she has a crib we can have. She apparently has two, but only one child is still using one. So, we can basically pick which we want and have it. We just need to get a mattress for it, as she only has one of those.

Today, another friend very kindly gave me backup medical supplies, should we need them on another day like yesterday turned out to be, and then made food for me to have this afternoon. They were random requests, but she was totally game and did them for me. Unfortunately, she used smoked meat for the green beans, and smoke is a smell I can not tolerate right now. So, the green beans didn’t work out. But the French toast did and was very helpful.

I am just very grateful for the help and obvious love of friends.

Thank you, God, for friends. Thank you for the love you have shared with me through them. Help release me from this nausea, please, that I grow and nourish this baby while also preparing our beautiful home for its arrival. Help me to rest appropriately while also being productive with our home while I am home this summer, please. Grant me freedom from this nausea, that I may grow this baby with joy and gratitude, along with my humbleness. Because I have been humbled. Thank you for this all. And heal me from the nausea and bloating, please. Keep my husband safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Yesterday was surprisingly better by a lot. And then we have today, which has been worse than it’s been in over a week. I felt miserable most of the day, despite the morning hurl. I struggled to eat, and got even worse by evening. Had a total breakdown trying to find food at dinner time in a local shopping and restaurant area, and ended up with some bread slices that I kind of hated and cost me far too much money for what they were. But they were 890 calories, so I went ahead and ate them. By the time I got home and tried eating more cereal, one of the only things I’ve been able to stomach lately, but couldn’t seem to shake the nausea, I hurled up everything anyway. Fortunately, the horrible bread sauce taste was gone. Sadly, so were all the calories.

My husband said my butt looked cute while I was hurling, though, so that was an unexpected positive of a terrible situation.

I ended up eating a bit of mint ice cream, as it has helped lately with both nausea and calories. However, after an hour or so, I started feeling quite nauseous again, and am not sure I won’t throw it up in the next hour, though I’m getting into bed now.

So, dreadful day for sickness.

But a friend brought me a Mary picture, some nausea bracelet-bands, and a bunch of maternity clothes. That was awesomely helpful, both mentally and financially. But it was also great to have someone spending time with me. She even said we can have one of her cribs, as it isn’t being used anymore, and she will come back in a few months, when I’m feeling way better and up to it, and she’ll help me baby-proof the house. So, that was great.

But the nausea was dreadful…. still is…

God, help me, please… heal me of this nausea, and keep this baby growing well, please. Please…. And keep my husband safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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I ate food today. We went to my grandma’s to sit in the pool a bit before having a barbecue dinner at her place. I was worried the smell would be an immediate no for me, but it wasn’t. And I couldn’t eat the majority of what was on the meal plate, but I was able to trade for the pieces I could eat from my grandma, and I have the rest of my plate to my mom and my husband. And the wait staff even managed to bring me an extra piece of one item that had been particularly satisfying for me.

So, in the end, I ate a lot. A full meal. Not just a meal – a full meal. I even had a few of the dessert bites in the lounge afterward, and discovered that I was actually kind of stuffed after having eaten them. I hadn’t realized just how much I had eaten. And I couldn’t dwell on it. I just hoped it would stay down and digest fully and nourish us well.

So far, it seems to have done so. We are six hours after the fact, and I feel relatively okay. A positive sign, though only more time will tell for sure.

Okay, anyway, aiming to sleep now.

God, bless this night that we sleep well and effectively. Nourish us with the food I have eaten today, please. Keep this baby and me safe and well, please. Keep my husband safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Now, I’ve also got a headache. Because the nausea and bloating weren’t enough on their own today.

This is not easy and I do not particularly like it or want to have to do it ever again.

God, help me to grow this child well and to be a good mother and wife. Keep my husband safe, please, and heal me of this nausea. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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