I did it. I accomplished exactly what I’d wanted for today (and then some), and I cleaned out and cleared out that big box and its last 8%. And as nervous as I might have been about doing that – trust me, this getting rid of things I’ve had forever and resisted getting rid of for at least a decade has been an incredible strain on me. I mean, having all this stuff, exactly how it has been stored (a total mess), has been a huge part of my identity. I guess it was a big part of myself of which I wasn’t really proud, but that doesn’t make it any easier to clean it up and let it all go. I’ve never done anything so intense for myself as I am doing right now. (Not actively, anyway… Japan was tough, but I wasn’t actively seeking out all of that. I had no idea what was in store for me when I signed on for that job.)
That being said, I find that I’m almost more concerned about tomorrow’s events than any of this cleaning up and out stuff. I’m going to a sort of luncheon for people in the Texas and Oklahoma area who returned this past year from the same program in which I participated, the returnees. Something about it kind of terrifies me.
And I’m really not sure what it is…
Anyway, I’m going to do my meditation and painting I had planned for tonight. Sweet dreams, this half of the world (and good morning and afternoon to the other half). 🙂
Post-a-day 2018
hannah ananas 