Chicken baths

It only took hours for someone to give me the dinner I had actually requested tonight. So it goes for people with ADD and a lack of experience caring for others who are basically bedridden.

Nonetheless, while lying on my side in the tub, right before bed, feeling like I might pass out due to nutrition, I finally got them to bring me the salmon I’d requested from the fridge. I was on my side, so my mom held the container for me while I used a fork in my free and exposed hand to eat the salmon. It was awesome and what I needed.

But it wasn’t quite enough. So, she then went and got what was supposed to be shredded chicken. It was sliced and chopped, which is completely different in terms of textures, but HEB clearly doesn’t care to have their labeling correct for such matters. Nonetheless, I had to root through it while she held it to find pieces I could stand and not gag on. Of course, they ended up being the smaller pieces. So, eating those on a fork meant that several pieces fell. And, recall, where was I? Yes, in the bathtub, doing a sitz bath.

So, I ended up having chicken pieces in my sitz bath right at the very end. Pretty sure I cried about it. But I only was in it a few minutes more, and the water was close to tepid. Plus, the chicken was fully cooked and only seasoned with salt. I showered and washed fully right afterward, too, so all should be well with my body on this front.

But seriously. Chicken in the bath. Ugh. It grossed me out so much. Ugh.

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Birthday song

We recorded the baby making noises and sent it to my cousin for his birthday today, saying, “You recognize the song, right?”

She made silly sounds and threw in a few cries just before the end… it was just like the flow of the song, really. And I do mean that. It was very cool. Also totally silly. But cool and fun.

Thank you, Lord, for this family. Help us always to love and support one another. Please, keep us safe and well. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Another day

The midwife said she expects anyone else in my situation would start feeling physically better after tomorrow. She hopes I will be like everyone else in this case. Her only concern on it is how I am hypersensitive and very aware of things going on in my body, and that that sensitivity will make things feel worse for longer. However, if people start improving at that point, there’s no reason I wouldn’t start improving, too. I might feel worse than the average person still – as I likely do right now – but I would start feeling better than how I have thus far felt.

So, that is a positive.

Dear Lord, please, keep us safe and well. Help my nipples to heal quickly and easily, and grant us an easy relationship with nursing. Thank you for all the love. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Family nap time

This was a gorgeous time for us today. We all three were exhausted, and somehow ended up in a family nap together, bonding via sleep. Totally adorable and wonderful. But my body seriously aches, both from the physical effort of it all and from the actual things that went off-kilter in the labor and delivery – by God’s design, not by any human error or anything in the process. Everyone did a great job supporting me and the baby throughout it all. But the baby’s hand was in compound presentation, meaning that her right hand was up by her left ear. That makes the circumference of her “head” much larger to push out. So, that was painful in an intense way, and the resulting shredding of my vagina has been an intense addition to my recovery.

God, help us to heal and to bond together as a family, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Gobsmacked

“When are you due?”

“Yesterday.”

A conversation I got to have multiple times today. Each time, the questioner was clearly gobsmacked.

But it was kind of fun. Haha

Aside from feeling physically very rough as a whole.

Nonetheless, it was cool to get to enjoy being pregnant in public today.

Thank you, God. Bless us with a healthy and whole baby, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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(Still didn’t have it right…)

Due dates

As expected, due dates are total nonsense. It’s a random day that is simply around when the baby will come out. An educated shot in the dark.

This is our baby on its due date today…

Mom is physically really struggling at this point, by the way. Me tell, she’s doing much better since having cleared the other night. However, the physical side is getting really tough at this point.

God, help me to heal fully. Grant this baby safe and natural entry into this world of having a body on its own. Help us to have a comfortable, love-filled, easy labor and delivery here at home together. Make the baby and me and my husband well and whole and safe, please. Thank you for this opportunity. I hand it over to you, fears and concerns and doubts and all. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Heart rates

So, my heart rate – this is not true resting, but my average hesitate at any given point in the day – is about 60 beats per minute. Yes, it goes higher, and it is even lower when I am sitting around or lying down. For example, I just put in my retainers, used the bathroom, and put on oil and lotion before stretching and lying down in my bed. My current heart rate is 51 beats per minute.

Every time I have a prenatal appointment, the midwife tells me happily that she loves my blood pressure and heart rate. The first time she checked my heart rate, she sat there the full minute just to see for sure. I still remember her saying, “Nope. Not even sixty!” somewhat baffled and slightly chuckling. She was amazed, in a way. The highest mine has been in a normal appointment with her was, I believe, 64bpm.

However, the other day, we were moving me all around to check out some things, and I had been up and down and turning and talking, and all in a very short timeframe. So, she said she wanted to wait a couple minutes to check my vitals, so things could settle after such high level movements and efforts (getting up and down and moving around a bunch at 39 weeks pregnant is not easily done, to be sure).

But, as I sat on the sofa to ‘rest’, I ended up talking about something that had me very excited. I was quite animated and moving my arms around and even getting myself a bit out of breath in my excitement. (Naturally, I have no idea at this point what I was discussing, but I remember noticing afterward how excited I had gotten in talking about it.)

When she came over to the sofa to check my blood pressure and heart rate, I suddenly remembered that I was supposed to be calming down, not riling myself up. So, as she starting pumping up the cuff, I quickly turned inward, closed my eyes, dropped my head to focus, and relaxed intentionally into slow, deep breaths.

Not long after doing this, I felt the midwife turn when head to look up at me, and so I opened my eyes and turned to look at her. ‘Well, according to this, you died for a second there!’ We both laughed, and I asked what she meant. She said that everything had just come to a halt, jumping from high and fast to low and slow. I told her what I had done, and she said it made sense, but was clearly still impressed.

Turns out, in a matter of seconds, my heart rate had gone from 74bpm to 47bpm. No wonder it sounded like I had died for a second there – that is an absurd drop in the first place, let alone to have happen in mere seconds.

Guess all my training in athletics and yoga and meditation kicked in very effectively there. Not only did I grow up with all sorts of sports and learning to manage and control my breath for optimum use and physical output, but I am a certified yoga instructor, and I have a certificate that basically says I spent 200 hours working intentionally on my breath (that’s pretty much half the point of the specific teacher training I did, after all). Haha

All that to say that it was really cool to see how being intentional with my focus and breathing could affect my body so clearly and directly and efficiently. And to have actual data to qualify the effort – that’s what was really cool about it all. It was awesome.

Okay, now I go to sleep. Goodnight.

Dear Lord, please, let this due date mean something for our baby’s birth – have it be born on this due date, please. Make us ready in any ways we have yet to be ready, and make the baby ready in any ways it has yet to be ready. Prepare us all fully, please, and guide us forward into this beautiful family you have offered to us. Make me and the baby and my husband well and safe and whole, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Cleared

Okay, I have cleared. I am ready for this labor and delivery and baby. I can feel the physical difference of the weight having been lifted off my entire body, especially my shoulders and my belly. This is cool stuff.

Thank you, God, for these blessings. Help us to have this beautiful and love-filled experience. Be with us and guide us always, please. Make me and the baby and my husband well and whole, please, and keep us safe and together and with you. Thank you for our home and for this blessing. In your name, I pray. Amen.

P.S. My husband’s afternoon flight got cancelled, which was frustrating for his testing, but which blessed us with the opportunity to go have an awesome anniversary lunch together at a restaurant we both very much enjoy. It was wonderful to be together in that way and to enjoy such wonderful and filling food together. Such a great date. I’m so grateful to have my husband as my husband. Thank you, Lord, for bringing us together. Amen.

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(Nope…)