Today, sitting with a friend at Costco (yes, Japan has Costco, oddly enough), I noticed how at home I felt. I used to go to Costco with my dad, and Sam’s with each of my parents long before that. Now, being at Costco gives me a sense of everything being alright, and that I am loved and surrounded by those who love me (or at least am in the same town as they, and I will be with them soon enough). So, naturally, it was odd when we walked out of the store, because the crashing cold extinguished any and all warm feelings of home and home-y-ness, returning me to my current locale…
I’m okay here, certainly. I do believe what my mother once commented about me, though: I am European. She didn’t mean that I actually am European, of course, but that my style and my ways are very much in sync with those of Europe, and not with those of Asia. I imagine that I one day will be excited by a Japanese shop or this or that, when I am off elsewhere in the world. However, I am starting to see that the sentiment will not reflect that of when I cross a European cafe or restaurant – the former is likely to be a thought of “Well, that was a neat time,” and the latter occurs as an actual piece of me.
Post-a-day 2017
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