For some reason, I genuinely want friends, and I rather want males to leave me alone in the dating realm of life. I usually struggle even talking with guys who show interest in me, until they seem to understand clearly that I am not interested (a process which usually includes utter bluntness, ignoring, a combination of the two, and possibly many other negative-type events). So, it always feels like I just want guys to leave me alone – I don’t want to date anyone, so let it go, give it up -, but I’m fine with having friends and acquaintances, and actually prefer that to dating.
Yet I want to be with someone.
I think that 1) I am crazy, and 2) I am already in the mindset of being with that certain someone, whoever it is, because I feel so confident that it will be unbelievably obvious when the time comes that we finally meet and are ready to be together, that we are the ones for one another. So, in a way, I’m already having a relationship with this someone – or myself, if I am the only one meant for me after all -, and so I naturally am bothered by guys expressing interest in me. I already have someone, or else I won’t ever be having someone, so leave me be (on that front, anyway).
Yeah, so I suppose I have established that I am, indeed, just a little bonkers, then. 😛