I don’t know what it is, but I apparently am great at photography. My cousin and aunt said that I really just have a great eye for it. I see what they mean, but I keep wondering if it is only for certain circumstances that I am any good at it all, that I only have an eye for specific photo situations and events. Sure, I had great ideas for a couple weddings, and a handful of other events in recent years, but they all shared in their nature-tied, almost rustic themes. Part of me wonders if I just choose to take photos of things that are already awesome, and I am merely documenting those things, as opposed to my taking whatever is in front of me, and documenting it in an awesome way.
That being said, there is another part of me that wants desperately to agree with them wholeheartedly, go find a good quality camera, and start promoting myself as a photographer. This is the part that tells me how I am always just a very harsh judge of myself, and the standards I hold are far beyond the usual standards for people, thereby making what I consider to be mediocre work of my own to be spectacular by regular standards. And I so want to believe this part of me…, but I don’t want to be wrong.
Then again, why do I not want to be wrong? It looks like I want not to be embarrassed for thinking that I have taste, and being called out about it, because I don’t actually have good taste like I’d thought. Also, that I want not to cause people to believe I am cheating them in any way…. and it looks like that’s about it. Huh… Well, I know that I have taste. Especially seeing as how I frown at professional photos that I see all of the time, because I am disappointed that the photographer would allow such photos to be paid for. As for finding an appropriate value for my “work”, let’s call it, I guess I can easily enough ask different people for guidance, and always verify with the “client”, shall we say, regarding an agreed upon value of the work. And, regarding my earlier concern/wondering, I could always just do photos for those similar settings, if it turns out that I’m only really great at those types of setups. Well, that’s too simple, almost.
Fortunately, the key word there is “almost”.
So, I guess that means that I am looking for a camera now, because my phone is not satisfactory for anything above instagram quality. 😛