I share tonight the end of an e-mail I sent this evening, because it seems to encompass all my current thoughts.
Hope you have a great week! I’m struggling to write a long paper I don’t want to write for school, so I’ll go back to that now… it seems so far that 2/3 of my degree is on stuff I genuinely don’t care about and sometimes even dislike.
Sent from my iPhone
I wanted something to do, and it seems I’ve gotten it. I just wish I’d come up with something a little more to my liking for the long reports and papers, you know? Oh, well… only two more semesters of the not-fun stuff, and then I get to the fun stuff (Woohoo!).
I’m starting to have a rather solid feeling about this idea of doing interviews… in some form or other, I want to interview people.
Perhaps it is journalistic or nerdy, or even fan-style of up-and-coming individuals in various realms of society interviews… perhaps it is Malcolm Gladwell blow-your-mind-every-single-time-while-leaving-you-feeling-like-a-now-genius book interviews style… perhaps something else entirely…
But it is interviews… I can finally feel that clearly enough to tell.
And I’m excited…
I am Mr. Sneebly… again.
The question this time around, though, is one of what sort of outcome I’d like from doing all of this substitute teaching…. a question I had never expected I would have to be asking myself again, let alone being totally unsure of the answer… or even leaning in the opposite direction from the last time…
The problem with everything being automated, electronic, is that, as I have said many times before, when the power goes out, not only can you not see the toilet, but you can’t really use/flush the toilet, and you can’t even wash your hands afterward… which gets really terrible in a building filled with a thousand-ish high school girls…. even if the power is out for a short time.
But we live in Houston, Texas, where hurricanes take out power for days just about every year in the late summer and early fall.
Forward thinking, to me, doesn’t just mean going digital and automatic/electronic/whatever… it’s about actually thinking through things…
I’m not at a place to turn down a work-for-money opportunity, really, and so I’m going in tomorrow to work, though it wasn’t on the schedule until late this afternoon….
I usually love getting to go in to work, though – I genuinely enjoy it…
And the funny thing is that I’ve felt more and more down and out since I agreed to go in tomorrow…
… and I’m really not sure why…
It almost magical how much something seemingly permanency can change in a short time.
Just two weeks ago, I was noticing how few guys seemed to be in my life (not dating-wise, but just at all), and how I missed having males around.
As of tonight, it feels as though guys are overflowing in my life, and in various ways (though surprisingly many of them have made clear efforts to date me).
Life is crazy (as though I don’t already know that), and totally worth it (I’ve know that one for quite a while, too). 🙂