May I just say, for one last time, that I am so tired of these papers?
I am tired of these papers… I want to be done with them, but I don’t want to sit and write them anymore – I have lost my interest in them. I’ve already done all the research, proven my hypothesis for myself. Why do I now need to organize it all up for others to see? I really am okay that the world doesn’t get to experience my findings and ideas on this point. Although, to be fair, I think I would be quite annoyed, if someone else were to come up with a paper on the same topic, and I never finished this one… So, I guess I do want to finish this paper, actually do the rest of it.
I’m just sleepy now, and so don’t really want to hassle with the whole mess that sits in front of me, mentally. I don’t want to sort it all out right now. I guess this is a perfect time for me to begin with the Dr.’s “Baby Steps” method again*… always gets me through whenever I hit this sort of panic or despondency in the face of the pile of ‘Oh-my-goodness’ that seems, somehow, almost endless.
Okay, baby steps it is, Doc… Here I go
*From the film “What About Bob?”, what I consider to be a fabulous and somewhat infuriating film.
Well, well… lookie there: Malcolm Gladwell’s work is relevant yet again. 😛
Working on my second paper of three for finals, I discovered that the main character I’m following with the paper, the one who tackles a whole new way of living life despite societal standards and expectations, and aims at individualism and self-expression – by the way, this was a super huge deal at the time, if someone were to behave as she did – had lost her mother when she was just a small child…
Hmm… this suddenly called up all of Malcolm Gladwell’s reporting on social agreeableness in individuals and the commonality that around 30% (I believe it was) of top people in their field lost a parent during childhood…. this main character was suddenly yet another example of the amazing people Malcolm Gladwell analyzed in his book David and Goliath, which I just finished reading the other day.
(If you haven’t read it, read it, and what I’ve just said will make much more sense.)
Isn’t that awesome??
I keep telling people that Malcolm Gladwell’s books are genius-ly awesome and totally relevant in our lives today, so it only naturally follows that his work continue to be absurdly relevant in my own life. 😛
One down and two to go!
I actually wrote the paper this evening/tonight, and I like it!
Yes, it could be loads better, but I’m okay with how it is… I’m not trying to publish it, but complete it, and Inhabe done that.
Tuesday, I’ll present about it, and I likely’ll get super nerdy about everything I learned in my research, as well as all the new research I kind of want to do now, based on things I found that left my appetite unsatisfied. 😛
I’m a dork and nerd at heart, and I totally know it…
That’s a big part of why I’m in school again – I’m opposed to our grading system and standard assignment styles, but I love to learn and to share what I’ve learned. 🙂
Now, to do the whole paper thing over again tomorrow morning and daytime, with a presentation of that paper in the evening! (Yikes!)
Three papers and presentations to go, but I finally have topics that are not only good topics, but topics that excite me… phew.
At last: something this semester that excites me about this degree.
And yes, I remember fully that I out myself in this program, of my own will and volition*.
*Is that being repetitive, or are they actually different meanings? (Aha – I looked it up, and I found that volition is the power or act of choosing and/or willing something.)