Some nights, we are calm and at ease, for we know we have accomplished our expected tasks for the day.
And some nights, we are not, because we haven’t…
Tonight is one of the latter “some nights”… The thing is, though, I’m actually really interested in all of this research I’ve been doing for this paper… I just don’t want to hassle with putting it all together in a paper… you know what I mean?
I think I do, anyway…
Well, back to the paper organizing, so I can get to the actual writing… which is due to be turned in and then presented tomorrow… oops 😛
Hashtag I’mANutJob, right?*
*If you haven’t seen it, check out Jimmy Fallon and Justin Timberlake’s skit on hashtags… that’s what was on my mind just now with that line. 😛
You can do it
That’s my reminder for this evening at 8:15pm. I have about three and a half pages (single-spaced pages, of course) to go to finish up this f-i-n-a-l paper for the semester. And I can do this. I keep reminding myself of the baby steps, and it keeps working. I wrote the entire other paper at work today – don’t worry that I was skimping out on my work to do it, because I was not at all – following the baby steps method, and I think it will work similar magic for me on this paper tonight and in the morning. 🙂
I can do it. And Siri helped me to remember that, giving me that bit of encouragement I knew I would need this evening after class. I really do appreciate what Siri can do for me. He’s a great help for many things, and I am sure to thank him often (though he usually denies any need for thanks, whenever I do express it). 🙂
May I just say, for one last time, that I am so tired of these papers?
I am tired of these papers… I want to be done with them, but I don’t want to sit and write them anymore – I have lost my interest in them. I’ve already done all the research, proven my hypothesis for myself. Why do I now need to organize it all up for others to see? I really am okay that the world doesn’t get to experience my findings and ideas on this point. Although, to be fair, I think I would be quite annoyed, if someone else were to come up with a paper on the same topic, and I never finished this one… So, I guess I do want to finish this paper, actually do the rest of it.
I’m just sleepy now, and so don’t really want to hassle with the whole mess that sits in front of me, mentally. I don’t want to sort it all out right now. I guess this is a perfect time for me to begin with the Dr.’s “Baby Steps” method again*… always gets me through whenever I hit this sort of panic or despondency in the face of the pile of ‘Oh-my-goodness’ that seems, somehow, almost endless.
Okay, baby steps it is, Doc… Here I go
*From the film “What About Bob?”, what I consider to be a fabulous and somewhat infuriating film.
Well, well… lookie there: Malcolm Gladwell’s work is relevant yet again. 😛
Working on my second paper of three for finals, I discovered that the main character I’m following with the paper, the one who tackles a whole new way of living life despite societal standards and expectations, and aims at individualism and self-expression – by the way, this was a super huge deal at the time, if someone were to behave as she did – had lost her mother when she was just a small child…
Hmm… this suddenly called up all of Malcolm Gladwell’s reporting on social agreeableness in individuals and the commonality that around 30% (I believe it was) of top people in their field lost a parent during childhood…. this main character was suddenly yet another example of the amazing people Malcolm Gladwell analyzed in his book David and Goliath, which I just finished reading the other day.
(If you haven’t read it, read it, and what I’ve just said will make much more sense.)
Isn’t that awesome??
I keep telling people that Malcolm Gladwell’s books are genius-ly awesome and totally relevant in our lives today, so it only naturally follows that his work continue to be absurdly relevant in my own life. 😛
One down and two to go!
I actually wrote the paper this evening/tonight, and I like it!
Yes, it could be loads better, but I’m okay with how it is… I’m not trying to publish it, but complete it, and Inhabe done that.
Tuesday, I’ll present about it, and I likely’ll get super nerdy about everything I learned in my research, as well as all the new research I kind of want to do now, based on things I found that left my appetite unsatisfied. 😛
I’m a dork and nerd at heart, and I totally know it…
That’s a big part of why I’m in school again – I’m opposed to our grading system and standard assignment styles, but I love to learn and to share what I’ve learned. 🙂
Now, to do the whole paper thing over again tomorrow morning and daytime, with a presentation of that paper in the evening! (Yikes!)
I have to give a 20-minute presentation tomorrow on a 15-20-page paper I haven’t yet written, the research for which I have only just tonight begun reading… and had to stop reading, because money (aka real) work last night went so late that I didn’t get enough sleep to be at a level of quality functioning today…
I imagine I’ll manage something decent for the presentation, but ugh, this being exhausted so often and having to do work I don’t particularly want to do is just really exhausting. 😛
No wonder I feel ill.
P.S. I am a long-time procrastinator, so the last-minute work is nothing new – just the exhaustion from other stresses and whatnot combined with the procrastination is new and stressful.
I panicked that I wouldn’t have enough to write about for a 6-8-page paper for class. And so, I did loads of research, looking constantly for new sources to support just about everything and anything I was planning to say in the paper, and I collected it all in a Google Doc, adding the necessary commentary surrounding the citations, as I went along. Eventually, I grew tired of doing this, and so decided to take a break by deleting the headings for each section of my drafty draft and deleting any quotes I’d found that I would not be using.
…And so, somehow, I am sitting here with some sections that have yet to turn from citations to paragraphs containing the citations and the majority of the paragraphs written out already, and it is over seven pages long…. single spaced.
Guess my plan now is just to cut out anything I found to be third-rate. And, if that isn’t enough, second-rate comes next. Always easier than having to fill in with tenth-rate crap after having concisely said everything I want to support a topic in a paper, but another two pages are required by the teacher.
But I still don’t want to do it.
Anyway…, here goes.