I have to give a 20-minute presentation tomorrow on a 15-20-page paper I haven’t yet written, the research for which I have only just tonight begun reading… and had to stop reading, because money (aka real) work last night went so late that I didn’t get enough sleep to be at a level of quality functioning today…
I imagine I’ll manage something decent for the presentation, but ugh, this being exhausted so often and having to do work I don’t particularly want to do is just really exhausting. 😛
No wonder I feel ill.
P.S. I am a long-time procrastinator, so the last-minute work is nothing new – just the exhaustion from other stresses and whatnot combined with the procrastination is new and stressful.
Well, naturally, I am sick from stress, yet again.
My throat feels a fire burning fervently within.
Menstruation has been timely to increase my need for sleep.
And I’ve loads to do; so, please, let’s pray that I keep… up.
I have OCD, and I’m taking supplements to help rebalance out my hormone levels (because a lot of OCD is tied to hormone imbalances), and it had been making a noticeable difference.
But having the OCD still sucks, and some days are just really sucky.
And I mean really, really sucky… like today…, and I just want to have someone who will come take care of me and do everything for me, because I’m already stomach sick, and I don’t want to deal with anything but curling up in bed, and the OCD is panicking because I am sick…, and I just don’t want to deal with any of it (by) myself right now.
My stomach has ached and I have been consistently nauseous for the past four or five days…
Just about any food – and I mean the idea of it – makes my stomach curl in concern.
I feel as though I am growing paranoid about whether I’ll be able to find the right foods to make this all end, and am thereby making it all worse by being so distraught.
I don’t know how pregnant women do it for weeks at a time, and get through it okay, because it’s only been a few days of nausea for me, and I’m a total pathetic case of wanting someone to take care of me while I curl up in bed, borderline crying. 😛
I just don’t understand how I have to be sick still. It has been almost 14 days that I have been ill with whatever this is. Sure, I’m loads and loads better than I was at the beginning, or even for the first week. But it still sucks. What lesson does the universe want me to learn from this?
You know that sort of delirium that is sometimes tied to illness? The one where, mid-sentence, you have no idea what you were thinking, and aren’t even entirely certain that you were, in fact, talking. Yeah, that one. I’m totally living in that right now, with interspersed bouts of clarity and energy. It’s definitely weird. Kind of puts a troublesome damper on typing, even, let alone coming up with an idea for writing and then actually remembering it… Yeah. Okay.
Want to talk about normal? Let’s talk about how, while sitting on the floor at Kroger, inspecting the various versions of sea salt available, I discovered some excess turmeric and, as I am currently suffering from a terrible cold, I snorted it.
How about that for normal?