Whenever I find myself spending time with repeated thoughts and ideas and conversations in my head, especially somewhat negative ones, I must remind myself: Get Out! Now! That is all… Thank you for listening.
And, you know, it is one of the best things I ever do for myself.
I’ve spent too much time in my head lately, dwelling on some of the same conversations and ideas, leaving myself feeling small and in-the-way and a problem for others and a failure for myself. It’s quite depressing, really. No joke. I’m letting that all go tonight, though, giving it up to God, and giving myself grace and respect. I am capable, and I am worth it. Period. So, let’s keep on improving as we have been doing, pursuing the path on which God has been calling us. We can do it.
I pray your name in gratitude, God – the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. In your name, we pray. Amen.
I can usually (and do) say what others either can not or will not say, when a situation is in need of it, of directness and clarity. But I regularly cannot figure out what to say to soothe people, a situation for which so many people do seem to be able to say what needs to be said… I am gifted with words, but not with soothing words. That’s for certain…
Have you ever been with someone who makes the discovery that an alcohol-filled lifestyle is not necessary? That the previous lifestyle was mainly a habit, and not what one truly wanted? I think that, when coupled with an intention to live authentically going forward, with less (if not no) alcohol than previously had been common, could be one of the coolest moments/times to witness… someone standing up for one’s own self and life, and stepping freely away from societal standards for unhealthy coping and avoidance of life and it many difficulties.
I can’t even see straight, I am so tired. How on Earth am I going to survive the mental and emotional check? Yeah, I love and care about my family and friends. But I am crazy so far as everyone else can see,
But what if we got to it sooner, at the start, at the source? Why must we always sit to the side, and let things happen, both to ourselves and to others? Why must we ignore those signs and feelings of something being wrong, and just let them slide? Why are we so afraid of speaking up… again, for ourselves and for others? Why do we let love disappear, and allow instead a rule by fear?
God, help us, please. Give us the strength for those uncomfortable yet invaluable conversations, even confrontations. Bless us with your love, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.