It’s a special birthday for me this year.
It seems like the few people I really would love to have spend the day with me are all otherwise occupied slash unavailable on my birthday this year.
I would like to shuff this feeling of inadequacy and being unloved…, as well as the feeling of just not bothering to do anything for my birthday at all, since they can’t be part of it….
Perhaps I need just to go ahead and pity myself and have a great big, emotion-releasing cry, and get it all felt and out of my system, and then I can readdress how I want to celebrate my life this year.
It’s funny how, even at the thought of that, a miniature version just happened, and I’ve even started glimpsing ideas of things I’d like to do to celebrate life this year. 🙂
Praise God – He helps me through it all, even and especially if He is the one throwing it at me. 😛