Month: March 2024

Action

Today, I woke up after close to 11 and a half hours of sleep. I took some time to consider things, then got to work. I did only a few things at the house today, but they made a big difference in terms of creating easier forward motion with things this week. I have the week off school, and I want to get our house in order. We have some simple but major changes we’d like to put into place, and this week is a big chance to get all of that started.

So, I swapped a dresser in the bedroom today. Tomorrow, I have a rodeo shift and will get almost nothing done at home. Likely, I will create more mess by using dishes and eating food just before I pass out tomorrow night.

Clean up office: Clear out shelf by desk; remove shelf
Find bookshelf options for 'library' feel
Fold laundry and find where it all will live going forward
Vacuum everywhere
Mop floors
Tidy up the stuff left out in the living room from our trip
Tidy up and restore order to the guest room

That may not seem like much, but it is loads. I have a lot of work I want to accomplish this week. Even half of any of these would be massive progress, so I will give myself grace on it all. My big goal is to accomplish all of it. However, even doing one of these fully and another in part will be a valuable accomplishment for me.

So, let’s see how it all goes!

God, help me to serve you this week especially though caring for my home and family. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Tea Party

Today, we attended a tea party as a bridal shower for my friend’s sister. And it was actually really nice. We very much enjoyed the tea party, and it had me want to have more tea parties in my life… which was a surprise for me! Who knew I would want to have tea parties in my life??

Thank you, God, for such a lovely day with family and with friends. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Shift three

Today was our third shift of four. It started at 6:30am and finished around 3:30pm. I didn’t go to bed terribly late last night, but I didn’t sleep very well. I got home at nearly five PM and have had to force myself to stay up until now, seven PM. But I might need food still. I’ll go see what I can find quickly, then brush my teeth and pass out for the night.

Thank you for rest, God. Keep my man safe, please, and me and my family, too. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Rodeo

I love volunteering with the rodeo. But things I love can become things I dread when I don’t get enough sleep. And that is somewhat the case today. I still love the rodeo and doing our shifts, but I found myself feeling worn out by the one committee and not being interested in our shift tomorrow morning, let alone the fact that we have another on Monday. I noticed that I could hardly wait to be done with the Monday shift, so I could be done with all my shifts for the year.

I think I’m just worn out in general.

Yes, from rodeo, but only in part. Mostly from work, I think. I have to strike a balance between doing all the stuff I really want to do for my students and what I’m actually being paid to do for my students – hint-hint: I’m paid roughly half a regular teacher’s salary this year, since the previous teacher quit right before school started – as well as between the two possibilities of whether I will be offered the position for real for next year or not, which determines whether I’m doing things one way now in preparation for next year or in preparation for leaving. And it’s a lot mentally, especially on top of all the regular stress of teaching I have in the first place. And on top of those caddy and rude girls in class… that, too.

And my sleep schedule has been wrong for me. I think I need to be absurd to society and go back to an 8:30pm bedtime. Lights out, goodnight. My body wants to be up before five AM, and I need to give it sleep when it will allow itself to sleep best, so that I can be my best.

Anyway, going to bed now, totally worn out but grateful to have had a delicious steak for dinner earlier.

Thank you, God, for my husband and our home. Please, help us both to be our best selves each day and night, always growing closer to each other and you. Keep us safe, please, and thank you for our food today especially. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Sleep

I go to bed early, but it isn’t early enough, and I struggle with sleep for more then half the night. I plan to go to bed even earlier tonight, but can’t have dinner due to a filter’s being not-replaced-yet. So, I finally have a late dinner and am almost ready for bed just before eleven PM. I had wanted to go to bed at 7:30 tonight… I’m just so tired. And my body really wants to wake up between four and five in the morning. So, working on that… ineffectively, it seems…

God, hep me to find the balance my mind and body need to be my best self, please. And do the same for my husband with himself, please. Thank you for this life and my husband. Keep us well and help us to heal. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Ice cream

I wanted ice cream to go with dinner tonight. I asked early about it. However, by the time my husband actually got to the store and back with it, it was beyond bedtime, and I was already ready for bed. So, I didn’t get any, after all.

But yes, I still want it now, sitting here in bed, about to turn out the lights and go to sleep.

Aahh… denial for Lent.

God, help us both to sleep well tonight, please, that we pursue and fulfill your will tomorrow. Keep my husband safe and well, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Protein

Supposedly, if I manage my protein intake better, that could have a huge impact on my exhaustion recently. Ever since rodeo stuff started, I’ve been barely making it, what with getting to bed so late at night. I’m able to sleep in sometimes, but the sleep is never as good, nor does it truly give much more time sleeping, since my body tries to wake me up, anyway. But having a bit more protein and having it spread throughout the day could make a very positive difference. So, let’s give it a go. I’ve been good with protein for breakfast and lunch, but then regularly don’t end up with a dinner at all, and suddenly throw together whatever random things I can find to avoid the midnight headache from not eating enough.

Looking forward to be better rested, and soon.

God, help me to be well, please, and help me to take care of myself well. Same for my husband, please. Thank you for him and for this life. In your name, I pray in gratitude. Amen.

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Sleep

The day went decently well, but tonight wil be all the better because it, simply, is here now, and I will be able to sleep.

Thank you, God, for the rest tonight offers me. Keep my husband and me safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Layers

Because, when I looked for a word to express my exhaustion, “layers” came to mind. Why? Because exhaustion has layers, and I am at a much deeper one than usual. My brain is even struggling to work fast enough actually to do anything.

So, I’m going to sleep now, mostly satiated from the day’s activities and time spent both with people and alone.

God, help me to sleep well and effectively tonight, especially, and all nights. Keep my husband safe and with me, please. Help us both get to Church tomorrow (well, today), please, and to be kind, both to others and to ourselves. Thank you for this life. Help me to be well and to pursue and fulfill your will. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Double shifts

I worked for one committee this morning, which started at 6:00, and for the other this afternoon, before the first technically finished, until close to 10:30pm. I got home at about 11:00, and was really struggling. I ate, because I needed to eat more. Now, I am grateful to go to bed and crash hard.

Goodnight.

Good, thank you for the successes of today. Keep us all safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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