Tread lightly… tread lightly…, they say…
I am treading lightly….(!!!!)
And it’s making me sick.
My stomach actually aches from treading lightly here….
What if I just don’t want to tread lightly in this case?(!!)
And not from a place of egotism or righteousness or, even, disregard for authority…. from a place of genuine, heart-deep, conscious love and inspiration.
What if I want to break the ice, clear the surface, and plunge…?
…
The silly part is that I couldn’t even tell you why I want to do it that way, which is what makes me feel so stupid about it all…, and yet…
I want deep to my core to plunge… I am ready for it… I have been preparing…
And yet… I tread lightly…
Whatever the case, I think I need to give up treading lightly when it just doesn’t work for me – it is lacking in integrity for me to tread lightly, to be cautious… so, either I start doing some cracking and shaking, or I walk away, I think…
Neither feels amazing right now, but I can tell already that either is better than this as it stands… this is not uplifting for anyone right now; there is something better for us all here than the current state of affairs.
And my first step is to step already – either fully on the ice or back off to shore – and to do it fully and confidently… there is something better waiting for me…, for all of us, I guess, really.
Anyway, as Superchick says, though it might not be today, “someday I’ll hope again, and there’ll be beauty from pain.”
I am ready for this someday… let’s get to walking big time, Nanner, and deal with this ice situation, one way or the other.
Post-a-day 2020
hannah ananas 