I got errands done today and am very delighted about having done them myself, as well as having them done period.
However, I have this headache that I’ve had since about five PM, and I cannot seem to shake it. I’ve drunk water, spent time in the quiet, eaten lots of food… it seems it just just be a sleep headache (though I slept a lot last night, I believe).
So, I guess I’ll go to bed now, even though I am just at the start of a movie for the evening.
Goodnight, all.
Post-a-day 2024
Today, neither of us had work – both were closed. So, we slept in. I slept rather hard for most of the night. In the morning, I crawled back into bed and snuggled against my husband for a while after I had originally gotten up. I just wanted to feel loved, physically, this morning, especially. And I did.
I finally got back up and got the dog up – she might be dying, actually, but she might rally and be okay for another five years – and went and sat outside with her for a while, just enjoying the sun.
Of course, the chicken that always gets out was out, and she came right up to me, sitting there in the sun, and pecked one of my toes(!). As I was yelling at her, she seemed to be creeping up, considering trying it again(!). Totally nuts.
Anyway, after a while, I went and got up my husband, because midday is enough. I made us some eggs for breakfast, then hung out for a bit and had some tea before meeting a family friend.
I spent almost three hours with the family friend, mostly discussing my brain and my goals in life and how those fit in with transitioning into a tech career around coding, as well as how my struggles so far can be helpful with moving forward into it all. He has been in the industry for a couple decades, and offered to help me figure things out however he could. Why? He did even know. He said he just felt called to help me because of who I am as a person. (That was a really awesome thing to hear, by the way. I felt truly seen and appreciated.)
Then I stopped to get OJ that we need for Sunday, and headed home. I ate some food and hung out some more. Then I helped move several light-ish bags of potting soil before getting ready for bed. Just enough physical activity to keep me moving and using muscles, but not too much to be a problem for my current state. Because I do need to rest. But I don’t need to be like an invalid or massively depressed case, lying in bed all day and avoiding the world. Not at all.
All in all, it was a very productive but restful day. I spent time in direct sunlight, I spent quality time with individuals who care about me, I spent meditative time alone (and with the dog and chickens), I rested and relaxed, I got in some physical activity that used my muscles, and I ate food and drank tea and water. Yes, today was good for me, very good for me.
Thank you, God, for the rest. Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
I wasn’t ready to go back to school today. I felt it with my whole being. But I couldn’t afford not to go, financially. I’m only paid by the day, and I had already taken off yesterday.
So, I went to school today.
I had my first class. We did our work, and it went well. Then I went to see the one teacher who knew. We chatted briefly, but well.
And then she asked/told me that how about she go ahead and take my other class, and I go ahead and go home now, so I could rest. So, I cried some more in gratitude, told the department head what the other teacher was going to do and that I needed to leave – and he accepted without question – and I left.
It was a terrible thing that made any of this relevant, of course, but it made the blessing all the more powerful.
My mom and I had planned to meet at Costco after school today, so we could get groceries for Sunday. So, instead of going this afternoon, we went this morning, basically right as the store opened. After we finished, I had a slice of pizza that I had been longing to have for some time, as well as a soft serve and a frozen coffee thing, both of which I had also been wanting for some time, and enjoyed my lunch thoroughly.
Then I went home and rested.
I talked with my dad, and it was a really good conversation.
I got the body wash I had been wanting.
I visited my grandma for what was likely the last happy hour at her place, and my mom and husband joined, too.
And I rested some more before going to adoration… which wasn’t actually happening as the church had advertised. So, I jumped into the end of the Spanish Mass that was happening instead and adored Jesus through receiving Communion with immense gratitude.
And then I went back home to rest some more before bed.
Now, I’m ready and going to bed.
Oh, and my best friend surprised us with a beautiful bouquet of flowers delivered to the house today with a kind note.
So, goodnight.
God, thank you for the many blessings of today, including my ability to spend time with those I love and who love me. Help me to heal fully, especially with and through your grace and love. Keep my family safe and well, please. Stay with us, powerfully, please. Help me to feel your arms helping me, healing me, guiding me. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
Some things necessitate misery. This is one of them.
I noticed this morning, having stayed home from work for the day, that I was filled with a sense of ease I had not had for a long time. Not really interacting with anyone was good for me today. When an app helper person responded dumbly to some feedback I had given, I was, in a way, enraged. I just couldn’t take it, either the stupidity or the disrespect… it has me a bit worried that I am not actually ready to be around people tomorrow.
It is likely to be a difficult day for me, and on multiple levels. I’m almost hoping that I have a sort of freak out, just so I can go ahead and leave for the day. We don’t have school Friday, so tomorrow is the last day of this week for us. And yet I still don’t want to go.
But I’m only paid by the day, and we need as much financial support as we can get right now. So, I’m going in, it seems.
I’m not ready for this.
Post-a-day 2024
Welcome to the (largest) club that no one wants to join.
Ironically, you will find much love here.
You can do this.
God helps.
Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
A priest just said that the apostles likely were roughly in their late teens or early twenties…
Somehow, that is really odd for me to grasp.
And yet… perhaps it does make sense, considering how they reacted to so many things in very… young ways… huh…
Well… time to sit with this totally new idea that they weren’t all Jesus’s age!
Haha
Weird. 😛
Post-a-day 2024
It is kind of bad right now… it acts like it’s getting better each day, but then seems to backtrack by the end of the day…
Oh, dear…
God, help me to balance out everything, that I pursue and fulfill your will. Help me to be healthy and well in all ways, through you and your guidance. Keep my husband safe and well, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
Society calls for us to hide our pains from the world around us. And yet, how hurtful has it been each time we have learned that someone has been suffering silently, and often entirely alone, right by us, but without our knowledge… and wished we could have helped?
Perhaps we aren’t made to keep it hidden inside. Perhaps we were made to share, including our struggles, with those around us.
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps…
I think we were. How else would we grow truly close to those around us? How could we learn to love each other fully, to show our love fully? Perhaps it is why everyone seems so far away these days…
Post-a-day 2024
Making important decisions while being under-informed and pressed for time is a terrible idea. Just saying…
God, help us find your way, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
I ate reasonably today. Though, I definitely likely should have eaten more. I’m going to bed feeling slightly ill, and I’m hoping I’ll have a good appetite in the morning, and eat some good eggs. I need to make sure I have snack bars for lunch, though, because school has been doing only breaded stuff for Fridays during Lent, and that won’t do for me right now, especially not fried fish (I can’t stand it).
I wish my husband were home right now. He has a meeting. But I miss him.
Anyway, I’m going to sleep now. Goodnight.
Thank you, God. Be with us always, please, and take over wherever you see fit, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.
Post-a-day 2024
hannah ananas 